justyou&me

2008-08-12T12:05:00.002+08:00

All th fun I'm having right now , it seems perfect , ideal . Everyone seems to be by my side now . Yet , when reality hits me , will everyone be there like they are now ? If trouble comes our way , will they stay put like they say ? I doubt so , seriously . No one will really be by me . Catastrophe , I'm th cause of it . Why can't life be easier for all of us . It just seems so hard right now . Seeing him suffering for me , it's not worthwhile . Should I go back nds just surrender ? Will it be a better solution for all ? I'm not going back to that hell place again , yet , I don't want to see any other suffer for me .

CRYSTAL: laogong , you running away uhs ? contact me (: me & yuan worried for you luhs . & hope you manage to qo to sentosa @ sunday ^^
i did go after all right ? (:
♥`i'm Lyn.: aiya. girl, takecare ok. [: need help can tell me, i'll try to help.
haish . i see .
vicki: hey man violet which school you at now. or are you in school? o.o
i'm not in any school .
kailin: qirl contact me asap oks (: ILOVEYOU. i will get the thing you need soon. so meetup okays (: dont leave me alone. im scared =/
love yous too .
kailin: qirl you pierced you tongue already ! ? =S
yups .
hao: may i know your name?
violet ?

2008-08-08T10:34:00.002+08:00

How long have I been running away from this reality ? It seems like just yesterday , yet it has already been more than 7 months . All th stuff that i've done , what is it that's becoming of me . I hate myself , really . Hated oh so much . But loves , tell me I ain't wrong . Tell me yous guys wills stay by me through all these . Seriously , enough of all these crappy insanity posts . Just let me live in peace people , will ya ?

2008-08-07T11:45:00.005+08:00

Khoo Kailin .
You will forever be my bestie okays . No matter what happens i'll wait for yous . Nobody understand yous , only yourself . Really . Just learn to be cool in school , anything call me . If they treat yous like crap , they will get it from me . Nobody treats anybody like a piece of crap , cause if they do , what if he/she is th one in your shoes ? How does it feel ? Seriously , people you need to listen up wise . Anyone dare lay a finger on my baby , i'll fuck you upside down .

HAPPY ONE YEAR`GIRL :D
I love you ; 070807 .
Twinnies PBT .

Everyone .
I'm running away already , don't ask me where I am cause my lips are sealed . I'll only tell people whom I can trust , not yous kendrick ( YOUS ASSHOLE BASTARD ) . Maybe i'm just really stupid . Yeah , plain stupid . But I cannot withstand th environment of being controlled . It's really difficult . Six years . It's not going to easy , but i'll try . Withs those who support me by my side , I take it all . Yous guys may say yous understand , but really , do you ? Someone has gone through what I have gone through , but th story would be different . Busybodies , fuck off from my life . Be a nice bystander , just shut your trap up .

Boy oh boy .
Are yous really mine ? All these times i've known yous , th quarrels we had , th bickering that took place , it just made me love you more right now . I remember we used to be loggerheads , how amazing that actually seems . Now that we are together , is is going to last ? Or is it going end up just like yours nds my other relationship ? I'm really scared , i'm afraid that I will get caught . Wills yous really wait , like you claimed ? Be my last romance , will yous ?

Oh . My phone line got cut off . Anything leave tags at my blog , comment me at friendster , or leave me messages on MSN . I wills get back to yous people .

AHGIRL`JOEY {:: Sillybaby , Give me your blog email , I invite you t my blog .
your blog not private what , i thought . lloves((:
guaii di di: wey....nvr link me arh....
hahas . next time luhs . i lazy .
SIEWJIA: why? don't say that okay. it's really not the end yet. really. you can still change your future
it has , so far .

2008-08-06T03:44:00.003+08:00

Late morning , early afternoon , bused to ahvin`korkor house . On th way , talked on phone withs Robin nds Ryan`didi . Reached aljunied , stunned to see kor fucking asleep . Never go school again , bad KELVIN NGIAM . Anyways , met up withs Robin . Sibeii buang , scare th freak hell out of me mans . He was like treating as though I'm really his girlf or something . Scary . After that around four plus met withs Stanley`hamster at aljunied mrt((: He looked like someone , damn alike . Gosh . Supposedly , we were suppose to take train to City Hall to meet Qihan to watch Money Not Enough 2 . But saw hims on th train instead . Lols . So Vin`korkor , Ryan`didi , Stanley`Hamster , Evon`marmiie , Qihan plus me took train to City Hall . Stanley got shy o.o he said he was scared , hahas . Damn funny , nds kinda cute ? Lols . Whatever . So he left ): So stupid , after that , Qihan left cause his friend tio taiji . Bobian need him to go down . What th FUCK . Left th few of us , bought tickets . Played pool . My skills rusty liaos ! Oh my god luhs ! This sucks . I was called " Qie Bao Queen " , kor was named " Tyco King " . He damned tyco , everytime aim this one but heng heng another in .

Was watching Money Not Enough 2 , it's a damn emotional movie cans . I cried th shit fuck out of me when th grandmother sacrificed herself just to save her grand-daughter . There's parts where th movie is hilarious , but I prefer to touching scenes . More worth th money . I was also thinking what wills happen if my grandmother passed away while I'm running away from home . Seriously , I will be damn exasperated . Really .

I love you , grandma .

CRYSTAL: hhohoho . laogong ^^ !! withlovees <333
laopo ! hehhehs , loves :D
cheryl , yuan: daddyyyyyyyyyyy:DDDD iloveyou DDDDDDDDDD
nu-er ! wo ye ai ni ; see yous soon :DD
SIEWJIA: hey! don't be so pessimistic about what you can change alright? so what if you did do bad things last time? you can still change for the better you dont have to do sc proud, all you got to do is to
I can't do anyone proud anymore . Really can't .
SIEWJIA: make youself proud cheer up yeah?
Yeah , I wills try to . Thanks(:
SIEWJIA: and i'm sure you'll be able to do it, when you put your heart to it
Hahas , maybe .
chemis3: Walao...ur aunt...dam sadistic sia...
o.o what about my aunt ?
chemis3-1st aug: Yea...coz i will be there...i dont go round saying things that i cant do...really. I'm in no position to judge you but...i must say...b4 u thinking of commiting...its hard to kill a man...
lols . too cheem , cannot understand .
chemis3-1st aug: Con'T....Its harder to kill yourself..and its not worth it...idk much..but its common sense.
i don't see common sense :o

2008-08-03T14:52:00.002+08:00

Th day before yesterday th yesterday ( meaning 3107 ) , went to watch MUMMY((: Nice show , watched it at Woodlands Causeway`Point withs Vin`korkor , Ryan`didi nds MinKai`boyf . It was damn retarded luhs ! I screamed at one part , then everyone started laughing at me . So paiseh D: But Jet Li is damn hot in th movie , he could control th elements :o He may be old , but he sure have th looks =x Slacked until like 9 plus , then Vin`korkor , Ryan`didi nds me go to lan shop play audition . Lucky Ryan`didi , he finally level . FINALLY . All left for home around eleven plus going twelve plus . Reached home 5 minutes before twelve . My aunt told me I was smart , knew how to calculate time . " Wahs , so smart reached 5 minutes before th Hell Gate open . Know how to calculate . " LOL .

0108 .
Nothing much . Stayed at home , slept till 5 plus . Phoned Vin`korkor , asked if he want to go out slack . He wanted to but Evon`marmiie didn't allow . But whatever , went to his house . Played audition till 10 plus . Then in th end marmiie still agreed for him to go out ton withs me . So we went to Tech Whye , waited for Zell . Which HE WAS DAMN FUCKING SLOW . But eventually he finally came , picked us went to his house , watched movies . Boring shows during ghost month . I thought we could watch those super thrill-y movies to make me freak out , but failed . Left early morning for Vin`korkor house again . Slept through till like 1 plus in th noon .

0208 .
Crystal`laopo ders sms woke me up , she reminded me that she nds cheryl`nuer on their way to Bugis already . So I faster wake up do everything thens jiu left Vin`korkor to meet Crystal`laopo , Cheryl`nuer , Daniel`didi nds this other girl . Don't know her name . Had fun slacking around , especially disiao-ing didi nds laopo that time . Hahas . Thens don't know what I jiu leave for BBQ . Then till today , 0308 , afternoon just reach home .

* Somebody called TengHong just called me , I think he is --UNO-SKYx3 . I pretended that I don't know him * =x

xyz: hey gurl running away won't resolve anything. perhaps its high tym for u 2 reflect on ur actions.. i knw its hard 2 accept the truth but there's no escapin' from it either
yeah , i know . but , i've already reflected yet there's no way back .
kaiLin: haha confirmed its sam alreadt. and he claims that he doesnt know malcolm. which is like weird. hahas.
fuck samuel . FUCK . lols . he is one damn fucker :o
kaiLin: anyways whats our one year anni plan? go out play okoks ? dont tell me youre booked . its next thursday qirl ;D
girl , where are you ! WHERE . call me soon , please ! D:
Adelia!: HAHAHA violet! i'm so proud of you! YOU HAVE TO DO SC PROUD OKAY? Hope to see you SOON!
yeahs soon , but no proud doing .
♥`i'm Lyn.: i dunno, i'm going insane. D: aiyo girl, dont sad lei, dont emo. you know somewhere out there, there is a rainbow with lotsa ponies. [:
haish . how can i not be D:
lauren: hey violet don't give up hope yet alright. you're young and you have a great life ahead of you. just know how to maximise that potential. i believe in you =) jia you <3
thanks babe , but i doubt i'll be able to make it anymore .
cheryl , yuan: daddy DDD dun sad sad . nu er here ((:
NUER ! yous also cannot sad okays ! stop saying yourself ugly cause yous not .
qiying: HEYY! its okay yeah? as long as you dont give up just yet, im sure you can do it. ENDURE! you'll surely find that silver lining <3
i really cannot . nds i'm wondering when i can .

2008-08-01T01:05:00.007+08:00

Dear lord , when can I really get happiness ? When can I really be settled into this family of mine ? Why do I have to screw everything up that's seems perfect ? Am I really th cause to my own downfall ? I'm here to repent , oh lord . But , I am not getting that chance anymore . I've disappointed yet another few people again , cause I'm going to hostel . Which I don't intend to face this reality , I'm choosing to runaway . Call me stupid , call me naive , call me COWARD . I just can't face this reality . So much for I yearn for , I don't want to be away from home . But why can't anyone see that point . Let's just forget all this alright ? Forget there's someone named violet . Caused , she's just a nobody . She doesn't deserve all this love that her family nds friends are giving her . Let alone say she's someone of calibre . She has none . She's just another bitch . Really .

I miss her , my so-called best friend . But is she really one ? I don't blame her for anything that has happened , even if she stabbed that wound of mine twice , she's still my best friend , ever that I have . I missed those times with her . But I will never be able to go back who I once was . I've learned , not to trust . It hurts to trust . It does . Nobody will support me like they always say they will . It's all just a facade . A mask that everyone puts on . I'm sick of all this . Maybe , one day when I'm really tired of all this . I will end it all . But is death really that simple like it seems ?

Boyf . They are just guys trying to play with me , they are sincere , as their mouth speaks . Their actions seems otherwise . I don't feel sincerity at all . None at all . That's why I chose to end every relationship first , before they did with me . I'm just trying not to get hurt . I'm weak , really weak .

I ❤ my family .
I ❤ my friends .
I ❤ you , if you know who you are .

♥`i'm Lyn.: i'll tell you asap, once i figure the thing out myself. [: haha.
hahas . figure what ?
windz: yo jie, tagged
yo di . hahas .
kaiLin: one year one year. hahas qirl ! lols i forgot what i wanted to say. i'll come back when i remember (:
lols . sure sure . ONE YEAR FASTER COME !
kaiLin: ohright, tiziana has a boyfriend ; maybe its tht`idiot samuel lye. HAHAS
lols . fuck that bastard .
CRYSTAL: laogong (: aini wor. ^^tagtag
laopo ! ❤ .
qiying: HELLO! WHOA triple science alr leh! must mug alrr (: OH OH. coool beatty ncc? haha. TELL US WHEN YOU ARE GOING FOR COURSES!
i doubt so already . read my post nds yous wills understand .
passer-by: hello i dont know you, but just want to say that if you want to start afresh, you can do it (: good luck for everything!
lols . thanks , but it's not going to happen already .
hi: All the best. Don't waste it.
hello hi , i'm bye =x thanks , but i'm wasting it . sorrys .
kkor: 6 MONTH LERHS HAHAS
yups .
xinyuan: YAY HAHA VIOLET YOU'RE IN TRIPLE SCIENCE????? SO COOL ALL THE BEST YEAH? YOU CAN DO IT HEHE I LOVE YOU!!
thanks encik ! but , i'm wasting it . i'm sorry . i ❤ yous too (:
kaiLin: qirl jiayous okays ;D i support you all the way (:
boy , how i wish you can talk me through all this . really . ❤

2008-07-31T09:30:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 6th MONTH ANNIVERSARY , VIN`KOR ! :D
310108 .

That's about it , yeah ? Life is really horrible , full of ups nds downs . My admission into BSS is being doubted right now . Seriously , th principal posted a question to me . " What is th goal in your life ? " No doubts , I was stunned . It just hit me hard in th face that I realized , I don't really have a goal at all . At that point , everything was over . I thought . Apparently , he wants to give me a chance . He wants me to right a " report " on to convincing him to accepting me into BSS . Still working hard on it right here .

TAGS REPLIED IN NEXT POST , TONIGHT (:

2008-07-29T10:35:00.005+08:00

Short Post .

Just to crap some stuff . Congratulations to myself :D I am officially accepted by Beatty Secondary School , nds i'm most likely going to th best class cum triple science class . What th hell . I have to take up more subjects than before .

Likely to take up :

Chemistry , Biology plus Physics .
Higher Chinese ( after school lessons , damn ! )
Mathematics .
Additional Mathematics .
Geography combined withs Social Studies .
Literature .
English .

I'm so dead , th principal even have a expectation for me . To top th whole level for th End Of Year ( Includes Express , Normal Academic nds Normal Technical ) . What th hell , i've already missed out so much nds he still expects me to top . But oh wells , at least in express stream . Something to be glad about . Buhbye special stream . TOP EOYs , my new target . Means I have to mug like mad . Buddies , help me out ? Plus , th principal suggest nds wants me to join back NCC . So my ex-platoonys , see you guys in courses yeah ?

MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG !

HAPPY ONE MONTH WITHS RYAN`DI :D
280608 .

Lazy to reply tags , paiseh .

2008-07-28T03:40:00.005+08:00

yesterday was kinda coolios . didn't sleep at all , left house around six to meet junhao awhile . he got me greentea as refreshment , hahas . walked me to th bus stop nds left only after i got on a bus . got to ahvin`korkor house withs jiahao`kor messaging me nds on th phone withs ahkai`baby . got there , got shocked when i saw ryan`di sleeping withs kor lugging him . wtf ? lols . gay . thens went to have breakfast withs two of them plus evon`marmiie . jiahao`kor said he's gonna meet me at th market to have breakfast too . so five of us had breakfast together . jiahao`kor treated us to drinks , thanks . went back to kor house then don't know do what . after that went to my papa house to take money . also bought new contacts , a pair of permanent misty`gray contacts nds one temporarily ones . also gray colored . lols . i'm addicted to gray now <3 . hahas .

after that , dad got chauffeur to send ahvin`kor , ryan`di nds me to cathay to meet june`jiie nds jiahao`kor . slacked around , june`jiie nds jiahor`kor had lunched . after that we went to meet ahkai`baby . bought tickets to X Files movie . not a bad movie , was thoroughly sickening when th dislocated arm shown up . gross . after that walked around with ahvin`kor , ryan`di nds ahkai`baby . jiahao`kor nds june`jiie left for bugis to spend some quality time together . cabbed to boonkeng nds treated them macs . damn i'm broke . met up withs them afterwards at boonkeng caused i messaged jiiejiie say want th tickets . which korkor lie to me say throw away . hahas . in th end , jiahao`kor nds june`jiie walked me to bus stop to take bus . on my way home had vinvin to peii me talk on phone , thank yous ! :D

pangseh-ed momo`di today . sorrys , woke up late(x

maybe it was wrong from th start , what have i done to myself ? so much that i cannot even recognize myself anymore . i feel like a devil in disguise , i'm ugly . from deep down i am . th facade that's setting upon me , it too strong to overcome . th urge to commit crime , th urge to be nasty . i don't want to be like this , i want to be a normal girl next door . i don't need all those glam , popularity . i don't , really . yet , i feel th devil in me is waiting to be unleashed . just yet .

VINx3: zhu zhu u angry ah? don angry le la T_T i nvr disiao u...dui bu qi la...don angry le la...
i never angry , don't worries . (:
♥`i'm Lyn.: hahas the eugene lors , you asked about him on my blog whats . [:
ohs . i see .
tng: hi. didnt see you today. Were you there? sorry if i missed you. was busy acting as tour guide
nahs , i didn't turn up . i'm sorry . next time probably ?
♥`i'm Lyn.: hahas omg you're using "sadded" too. we're so cool.
omg , you're using it too ? hahas . great minds think unlike yo .
ryan'di: yo.....i make my blog liaon of cuz is wit kor's help
lols . i see . hahas . it's plain ...

2008-07-25T00:02:00.004+08:00

Here to reply tags , only .
Don't feel like posting .

kaiLin: qirl, i forgot when you starting school again lers. hah why you same as me. i dont feel like audi-ing toos. sigh saw your tag, replied.ILOVE BABY TOO !
i have no idea when i'm starting school . hahas , loveloves !
YENHUA: HELLO TO YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
hellos to yous too :D
VINx3: oink oink ^^ lalala~ u kw me marx?
oiink :D yahs , know luhs .
VINx3: ee...oinkoink nvr reply tag...roar~
got reply lers ! dooh :D
VINx3: oink oink like paly sand lehs ~lalala~ make sand castle ok >< lolx
yous make i destroy :D i destroyer xD
wookk: Oh? u started linking ppl alrd? right...can link me? chemis3freak.blogspot.com
hahas , i'll link soon okays ?
DOUDOU: zhuzhu x33 : D , outing soon. i missyou : D
douuuuu ! missed too , yupyups . meet up soon .
DOUDOU: [vin] stop disiao her hor. 1
hahas ><

2008-07-23T17:47:00.003+08:00

GOD`DAMMIT .
I'm bored .
Bored to tears .

Don't feel like audition-ing . I just wanna go crazyyyyyyy , insanity ♥ . Left 4 sticks of NextChill . Sadd-ed . People , talk to me ! :D

--UNO-YUANx3: hellos tag D lovessss x3333
hellos ! loves :D
zomq , LYN ;: HAHA . where got chio . i attract all the WRONG PPL . sadded bodoh .
awww ; don't worry , Mr.Right wills appear someday :D
KORKOR: hahas u nort hongdter lahs u tiongxim kay...:DDD
hurhur . suaning me uhhs !
zomq , LYN ;: haha friend . [: he damn joker sia . hoho , iie lurbbzx uue .
aii lurbex euux tuu :D wakakakas , who's damn joker ?
kaiLin: qirl what happen to you. now your turn sucidal ler ahs. i thought it was always me. anyways i really hope i can see you soon you know . im dying/dead.
hahas . same , must meet yous soon yo ! loveyous baby .
Ribeni: lolx...roar...oink oink hao =) lalala~ y ur tags words so blur de ==
ehhhhhh ? who are yous . iALVIN or something ? now better lers rights ?

2008-07-21T01:33:00.007+08:00

VIOLET IS SICK .
VIOLET IS FEELING SAD .
VIOLET IS EMOING .
VIOLET IS NUTS .
VIOLET IS FEELING INSANE .
VIOLET IS FEELING SUICIDAL .
VIOLET IS NOBODY .

found out a couple of things today . it really hurts . love , kisses , hugs , misses . all this takes place when you are attached . but do you do it like you really mean it ? do you say iloveyou to someone from th bottom of your heart ? i'm doubting all those things about love , they are just lies . sweet talking , that's what guys are professional at . girls , foolish naive creatures who believes in those sweet talking . boys , complicated creatures who plot against girls to deprive nds takes away what girls treasures . mainly , cheating feelings . i hate guys who cheats on girls' feelings . really . those typical common guys , please fuck off from my life . seriously , i don't depend on my guy anymore . i'm learning to be independent , learning to be more wise , mature nds intelligent . i won't go into another relationship til i find my right one this time round . so people , you can stop calling me hongster . cause i ain't one anymore , ain't after my most recent relationship .

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... ...

KORKOR: dont say ii bo tag ue hor...hahas
lols . okays ?
Jun Kai: sorry loh then i prepair guan cai loh... joking joking ha ha ha... xD
wahs , so wuxim arhs ! help me prepare coffin xD
lauren: you're getting a belly button piercing! cool!!:D haha miss you loads <3
most likely am getting(: miss you too babe !Y
zomq , LYN ! [:: hoho girl . i miss you lar , go out soon ok . but you cannot smoke in front of me .
hahas miss you also lors ! Y chouwifeyy , so chio hors . everybody is in love withs you ! hahas , i won't luhs !
Wilson: thx for tagging~ and linked~ =DD..
okays(:

2008-07-19T04:57:00.002+08:00

All those gossips , all those backstabbing . Those it make me any better ruining somebody's else life ? No it doesn't . It doesn't make me feel any happier . Watched Mean Girls , again . Nds that was when I realised it doesn't make me feel good doing nasty things to others . Imagine , if you were in that particular person's shoes . Another person is out to ruin your life , you will be miserable right ? I shall change , I won't be out talking behind people's back . Whatever it is , I'm want to be a new fresh person . I don't want to be a bitch . It's going to be really tough , but I wanna take up that " challenge " . Maybe all these may seemed to be all talk nds no action to you people reading this , I'm gonna prove it .

That's sure for it .

2008-07-19T02:00:00.004+08:00

I AM A OUTCAST .
fullstop .

2008-07-18T12:19:00.004+08:00

Don't treat me like I know nothing , don't treat me like a kid . I'm not that stupid nds foolish to believe in your tales , boy . So much for th want to be with me story ? They are all lies . Thank god that I didn't believe those at all , didn't agree to be tied down with you . Cause , I'll be th one contributing . You said you were hurt by all your past relationships , but I doubt so . Seems to me , you are th one hurting people . I've never been hurt so I will never know that feeling , nds I won't want to try th taste of that now , yesterday , nds forever . So boy , keep those dirty secrets of yours carefully . You want to play timer ? Be wiser . All I have to do is just ask a couple of people to check things out for me , though I know you have th same kind of resources as me but not as much . So learn up dude . I'm not a toy for you to play with , so don't try messing with me unless you are true to me . You , boy , playing timer on me , violet ? You are not up to standard yet . You may be th kinda stuf that I might like , but your inner-self is way out of my league . Th last thing I would want a guy to do is to cheat a girls' feeling . Think about it , if you were th one giving your 101% but your other half is cheating on you , how would you feel ? So boy , reflect dude . I'm not th simple nds innocent girl-next-door that I appear to be . I just don't want to screw things up , so I let th better self control me . If you people really want to get on my nerves , don't blame others when you are meeting your maker .

So , try me .

2008-07-18T09:27:00.004+08:00

TIME , PEOPLE ! TIME .

I seemed to be running out of time every single moment . I wonder why I am wasting my life down into drain this way , is it worthy ? Maybe , it seems worthy at this point of time . But certainly , in 10 years down road , I will look back with regret for what i've done . However , I meant my words in my previous previous ( ... so on ) post that i love my gans . It's still valid , really . Without my gans , especially Ryan`didi nds Kelvin`korkor , I would never put it through til now . I remembered th recent runaway incident , Ryan told me if I wanted to runaway til I was 24 years old , he would accompany me til then . He will runaway from his dreadful place too . It was comforting to know that those " buddies " are by your side now . But seriously , he , too , will regret his decision . Hence , I managed to advised him home on th day that I went home too . It's better to face th consequences that to hide from it .

But reality is just so hard on us .

Movie fanatics . Yes , we are . Watched a couple of movie in th past few weeks . Th stranger was okays as told in th older post . Hellboy : Th Golden Army was a smashed . Th effects were totally , like totally , woahs ? Hahas . Th movie's not bad . Worth th money . Cannot really remember th details though it was just last week that I've watched th movie . Yesterday , watch Th Dark Knight . Yesyes , we watched it on th first day it was released . Th effects were soso , even th turbo thingie was just * clap clap * only . No woahs . I almost fell asleep . For those who had insomnia , watch Th Dark Knight . Hahahas . Th starting was really boring , th kicks only came in at th back , where Joker ( support joker :DD ) got caught . Only then , it was th real climax . But my butt was burning cramped . I had to sit through a oh-it's-a-movie movie for 2 hours nds 33 minutes .

Watched th hellboy withs kelvin`korkor onlys . nds th dark knight withs kelvin`korkor , ryan`didi , eugene nds jess ( his a guy for god sake , pardon th name ) .

tired .

Mingxuan: hi violet, stay strong okay? i trust you know what is best for yourself
heyhey :D yups , will try . thanks .
jenna: hahaah would love to meet you again! miss you a lot. see you soon ok?
hahas , i miss you too(: hmm , hopefully , soon .
kaiLin: and soon we will get the ring okays , i'll pay for you if can.
hahas . nahs . yous pay me my $80 i got money luhs , lols xD
kaiLin: miss you like ****s. go out soon ! i dont care ahs =D
lols , must booked ders ! my schedule want to bom-ba already .
kaiLin: hahas yoyo, i was so damn worried lahs. dont runaway anymore oks =/ anyways im like shyt more than you okays ! =S
trying not to runaway . hahas . we both are shitty shit shit :D
Sherilyn`♥: AWESOME. i am up there(: HI BTW! (:
hellos junior(:
cheeho: mei ar... tc ar.. anithing tok to miie b4 u decide to do anithings ar... let dis lao korkor advised u first hao ma...
hahas , yesyes DA GE GA :D i know kays .
abby: violet! i miss you ! (: <3 you loads too! take care okay haha (:
ohmygod ! abby ! I MISS YOU TOOOOOO . love loves . yous take care too(:

2008-07-16T04:36:00.005+08:00

[x] Gotten detention.
[x] Gotten your phone taken away
[x] Gotten suspended.
[ ] Gotten caught chewing gum.
Total: 3

[x] Gotten late to a class more than 10 times.
[x] Didn’t do homework over 5 times.
[x] Turned at least 3 projects in late.
[x] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[ ] Laughed so hard you got kicked out of class.
Total so far: 4

[x] Got your mom/dad etc. to get you out of school.
[x] Text people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher
Total so far: 5

[ ] Pulled down the fire alarm.
[x] Went on myspace, friendster, xanga, etc. on the computer at school.
[x] Took pictures during school hours.
[x] Called someone during school hours.
[x] Listened to an ipod/cd player/mp3 during class.
Total so far: 4

[x] Threw something at the teacher.
[x] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[x] Broke the dress code.
[ ] Failed a class
[x] Ate food during class.
Total so far: 4

[x] Gotten a call home.
[ ] Couldn’t go on a field trip cause you behaved badly
[x] Didn’t take your stuff to school
[x] Gotten a detention and didn’t go
[x] Stuck your middle finger at a teacher when they were not looking
[x] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear
Total so far: 5

[x] Slept in class.
[x]Cursed at a teacher.
[x] Copied homework.
[x] Felt hungry during class and left to eat.
[x] Got into many fights.
Total so far: 5

Times your total by 3: 90 %
that's cool .

2008-07-16T04:09:00.006+08:00

我爱爱我的人 .
i love those who love me , nds if yous do , i love yous more than anything else . last night went to gerald's house sleep . never felt so carefree before . actually was given th chance to play all night , smoke all night without feeling guilty . it's what i yearn for . though smoking is what sustain me right now , i will keep to th promise i gave to my aunt . by 010908 , i will quit smoking . that's going to be really tough . just came back from meeting junhao nds jeffron . heng this time never kena caught sneaking out . but whatever nds so ever . my ear is burning , swelling . pierced back my cartilage piercings nds even added on to it . i pierced 4 cartilage piercing plus a tragus piercing all at one shot . if it isn't sat ki , thens i don't know what is . even th shop keeper called me pro , caused nobody had th guts to pierce so many at once . nds somemore is all at "bone" area [ e.g. cartilage nds tragus ] . it's pretty . my ear is gonna be full house . going to pierce full house . lalalalas ~

belly button next . lip piercing ? grown sick of it , took it out already . still considering tongue piercing , cause many people think it's really hot . BUT , too many people has it already . too common nds typical . piercing my eyebrow would be an option , ain't it ?

hello: hello violet, i know you're so full of hatred and sadness right now. i just felt you needed another chance, and i believe you would make good use out of it. it hurts, but you'll eventually learn
prolly am . thanks(: but yous are ?
HAZEL♥: huh you're going beatty? EH THAT"S NEAR MY HOUSE:D
it is my dear girl . it's located at toa pa yoh . lols .
HAZEL♥: i think?
think what ? lols !
HAZEL♥ okay, not that far, not that near, but quite okay! eh can meet up more often yo. <3 hahaha. love you!
but yous are ALWAYS busy dude . hahas <3
hello: and violet, you are loved.
hahas by who ? yous ?

A GREAT DISCOVERY :D
i realised alot of anonymous people tag at my blog . leave your names people ! so that i can thank yous guys(:

2008-07-15T20:43:00.003+08:00

okays . whatever . fuck off .
like am i stupid or what ? why only can i realise that my family [ some of them ] care for me after when i have done something stupid ? after this short " runaway episode " then i knew that my aunts actually do bother about me . my smallest aunt was even willing to lie to th court to help me obtain my freedom . but what she did is it worthy ? if this chance given isn't treasured , her effort is going to go down th drain . nds most of all , th all time bo-chup-yous-attitude third aunt , actually even went around in search of me . but whatever it is , my mother is a FUCKING-EFFING-BIATCH ! dang yous . even my whole family agreed withs me that my mother is way out of her mind . none of my family want to see me in that hell place again , but only my mother is so keen in sending me in . nds that fucking bastard john .

MISTER JOHN [ i'm being really polite here already ] , YOU DON'T HAVE ANY FUCKING RIGHT TO POSE AS MY FATHER . YOU ARE JUST ANOTHER MOTHER FUCKING LANJIAO BIN PERSON . KNNB CCB LAHS , ONE MORE TIME YOU ARE GOING TO LECTURE MY FRIENDS AND I , I'LL MAKE HELL FOR YOUR LIFE . TRUST ME , I HAVE TH ABILITY TO DO SO . TRY ME IF YOU DARE .

♥`i'm Lyn.: hoho, you want kill my eyes ah. make the tagboard font so small. blind lo.
it's not small , is it ? hahas .
kaiLin: ahahas. fine lahs. then kailin no use already lurs =/ so sad. violet so famous kailin like **** lidat nobody want de. miss you qirl meet soon oks .
i miss yous too :DD no luhs , is violet like shit kailin so famous (:
kaiLin: shyt *
censored :D
jenna: hi violet, remember me? i'll be there for you if you need me. cheer up
oh , hellos jenna`bananaaaa . thanks babe , meet up soon again yeahs ?
anon: hey violet.. i want you to know there are people around you who love you and still care for you, so don't giveup!!!
hmm , thanks . but yous are .. ? (:
mdm tng: violet, call me at 96920963.
hellos madam tng :D
mdm tng: violet would love to see you again. call me
i'll call when i need help . i'm not rejecting you , just i don't want to pull any body into this matter .
xinyuan: ♥
hellos XINNY ♥

2008-07-13T00:17:00.004+08:00

PEOPLE .

whoever who bothers to read my blog .

i'm running away from home , far from this place forever . i'm really sorry to disappoint those people who had high expectations for me nds really had good welfare for me at heart . i really can't go through all these insults at home . imagine being called a "beast" nds "pig" . it may be like really easy for you guys . maybe you guys will brush off all these remarks as , "it's just some comments , take it easy . they don't mean it. " but to me it's something really major . i miss those times where i'm more carefree , i hate being tied down . sometimes i do reflect , really , if hadn't do all these things at first , would my life nds path be different now . would it ? but it's all too late too be remorseful now . they did took place , nds i can't face th consequences . call me a coward , i don't care . cause i really can't take it anymore . i'm already broken into pieces , my heart's torn apart . i really don't need anymore remarks claiming that i'm stupid . i really want to start afresh . but who would give me that chance . i've had enough . really . so , it's all i've got to say . i'm starting again on my own nds all those who supports my decision . i know it's ridiculous to ask you guys to support such a foolish choice of mine , but i really hope to have all you guys by side , nds that's what i want . that's all . maybe i'm just being stupid , being naive . but it's all i ever want , freedom . i know everybody yearn for that , not only me . but i'm fighting for it . fighting really hard for mine this time . maybe it's th wrong way to get my freedom , but i chose it . nds i'm walking this road withs people that loves me , vice versa , i love them toos .

don't call me people , anything sms . i promise , I WILL REPLY . nds once i get a stable environment to live in , i will meet up withs you people one by one again .

2008-07-12T00:44:00.003+08:00

sabo-ed by my dearest wifeyy`lyntan to do this horrendous BOLIAO quiz .

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE ME :
001. cockroach or pratically every creepy crawlies .
002. pia zui [ if you guys know what that means :D ]
003. phoneless . i'll die without my phone D:
004. girls`home . it's th worse thing that scares me .
005. horror movie . [ but i like to watch .__. ]
006. dogs nds cats . [ cute but potential killers ]
007. moneyless . without money = DIE .

SEVEN THINGS I LIKE THE MOST:
001. baby , gans nds friend .
002. audition . i'm addicted , i know .
003. shopping .
004. cigarettes , like totally ! :D
005. eeyores .
006. my phone .
007. money. times 100 .

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME :
001. out of 24/7 , 14/7 i'm auding .
002. totally addicted to salmon fish .
003. i talk rubbish when i'm high .
004. i get irritated when people spams my phone with calls .
005. i hate bad skin day .
006. i like fireworks :D
007. th more i sleep , th more lethargic i feel .

SEVEN THINGS I PLAN TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
001. bomb earth .
002. stead withs all th hongster nds dumped them [ let them know th feeling of being dumped . though i've never been dumped before =X ]
003. be like elizabeth from hellboy to possess elemental superpowers :D
004. kick all th matah's butt nds lock them up forever .
005. go to japan , Hokkaido .
006. to possess at least 20 million USD .
007. sit on ferris wheel .

SEVEN THINGS THAT ATTRACT ME TO THE OPPOSITE SEX :
001. super fun , meaning , to bring me to a different place each time we go out .
002. hair [ must have nice hair highlights nds tail ]
003. piercings nds tattoos [ anti` non-pierced/tattoo-ed people . it's hot dude !]
004. super sweet personality :D
005. fashion sense [ i don't want a ahpek going out withs me . ]
006. no overweight people or shorties [ don't expect me to go out someone shorter than me right ]
007. must understand th language that i say [ like KNNB CCB :D ]

SEVEN CELEB CRUSHES:
001. frankie muniz .
002. channing tatum .
003. chester bennington .
004. chad michael murray .
005. robert hoffman .
006. milk .
007. OSAMA :D

SEVEN PEOPLE I WANT TO SEE TAKING THIS TEST :
who wants to do it , then do it :D

2008-07-08T13:37:00.005+08:00

Seriously , I love God . Yes , I do . Nds I love all my gans dearly(: Without them , I doubt I can pull it through all these . Nds what so ever babes , i've got another chance given to me . Is it a blessing for me , or is it hell for you guys ? Typically , I rather consider it as hell for you guys . It seem more fun that way . Anways , watched The Stranger with Sijing , Beiyi , Ryan`di , VinVin`kor nds Evon`marmiie . Damn that mother fucking show , is it seriously PG ?! Cause some scenes were definitely gruesome . Th scene where th friend's head *boomed* exploded was like , OHMYGOD . Hahas . Okay , whatever . Bought " Couple Rings " with korkor . As a five months anniversary as gan`kor nds meii .

SERIOUSLY I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO BLOG CAUSE THERE'S TOO MUCH TOO BLOG .

Erms , nds one superb horrible news . I'M GOING TO BEATTY SECONDARY . Like , fuck it ?!

babynoi: BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ,, woaini 1314 <33 dun every leave miies ,, grt any unhappie tink muz tel miies let miies noe dun kp it tuu urself !!!!!!!
maybe we already break , but be happy kays(:
x ; LYN !: haha sec 1 so cute, with you like super long skirt. [: haha don't mia lei, i miss you bodoh! i got alot of things to tell youuuuu! :B
I MISS YOU TOO BODOH :D eeeewww , i no wanna be a nerdy .
KORKOR: wad retart o0 hahas
huhs .
x ; LYN !: girl , chill ok , love ya ! see you soon ( tml ? xD )
i did see you man ! :DD
Jun Kai: aiyo ke lian ke lian de bao bao... how can they like that nah sob sob sad sad... don't say like this to yourself lah your gans and jie mei will be loved de nah... cheer up kayes
hahas , xiexie baobao :DD you must love me also xDD hahas .
:): hey cheer up and go back to sch alright there are people in sc who still care for u and want you back!!
hahas . thanks , but you are ?
HAZEL♥: hey girl, cheeer up yo! (: there's always people around that care yeah? btw, yes you sotsot already, think of such weird things! lol. love you! <3
i love you too ! hmm , trying to . AND OMG , I'M GOING BEATTY SEC ! @*#&@*#&@*#
wookk: whao! what a blast from ur post...i must say...i've a few frens in ur condition b4 so i can understand how you feel. its okay...
hahas , oh really ?
wookk: well...not condition...but circumstance...and besides...link me will ya? chemis3freak.blogspot.com
lols . i don't link people .
wookk: -.- u dont link ppl? icic nvm then..i'll link you. =D take cares
hahas , thanks mister . by th way , are you kaikein ?
Matthew;D: LOL. cheerup lar. meet up soon k?
hahas , which matthew are you man ? =X hmm suresure .
past by: can you give mi your name?
violet . you are ?
wookk: yea well i tag at almost every blog i go to that has a tag box though...i must say ur language in ur blog and the language u use agianst me is very very different. good to see that =D
i use against you ?! huhs .
kaiLin: wah baby ! everybody come and tag your blog ask you cheer up nehs (: so you must happy happy kays ;D love yous .
of course , I AM VIOLET lehs :DD i love you too girl !

2008-07-04T01:04:00.004+08:00

EILEEN TAN LAY HONG .
You fucking bitch . I've had enough of you . Yes , so what if you're my mother . But do you deserve to be called my mother ?! No you don't . You never ever appreciated what I've done . Even when I do something right or remarkably well , you never acknowledged it . I'm sick and tired of it . Fine , if you're forcing me to go in there , I tell you what . I'll runaway . Runaway from you , from th family , from every single things I had connection in th past . I don't need sympathy . I can start afresh on my own . You never treated me as your daughter , I'm just a nobody in your eyes . You think what ? I'm a machine ? A robot ? Someone of intelligence 3000 ?! Your expectation for me is way too high , I can't accomplish them . CANNOT . Do you get it now bitch ? Just fuck off from my life . If you weren't my mother , how wonderful it would have been . Best of all , you never gave birth to me . Won't it be better ? I won't be out doing all these hurtful things . Most importantly , I wouldn't have been hurt by you and every body else . I'm weak bitches , if you are out to hurt me . You've succeeded . Prolly , I'll just go to those cool high rise buildings , enjoy th scenery , and *pomp* . Lay flat down , bloody nose broken bones . That's th coolest thing of all . I rather be dead then be living here in this freaking horrible place . It's not one of th place I enjoy . It's th worse place on earth . I hate it . I HATE THIS PLACE . I HATE TH PEOPLE AROUND ME . I HATE MY LIFE . I HATE MYSELF . Yes people , I am disgusted by myself . Why do I have to be earth to create so much trouble for others ? If I haven't been living , wouldn't it be so much better . I should probably just go commit suicide and die . At least I don't have to face th consequences tomorrow . Freaking hell . I DO NOT WANT TO BE IN THAT FUCKING HELL LOT PLACE . It's th worse place on earth , other than my house of course . Th people in my house are horrendous .

Mother ? Fucked up cheebye BITCH . Who doesn't really bother how I feel , ands NEVER makes any effort to understand me .
Grandpa ? A bastard who vent his anger out on me everytime he is drunk . GOSH FUCK HIM . Do you think I'm your dog ?! To be whacked by you , scolded by you .
Grandma ? Prolly th best person I have in th house . But she's just another fucked up bitch who looks down on me .
Aunty ? High expectations . Never ending preaching . Eyes on top of her head . Not th person that I want to be associated with .

I'm seriously unhappy with my life . Why do I have to be th one suffering all their unhappiness ? Why why why why WHY ?! Th more you guys force me , th nastier it will become . So watch out bitches . Th next time I'm on th loose , it will be game over for you guys .

2008-06-28T01:10:00.002+08:00

this few days lazy blog luhhs , nds i'm quite sick of twit typing too . so end of it yeah ?

machiam i already forget what i did for th past few days . but went to meet baby at lan shop quite a few time . hurhur . that day baby came my house until 1 plus xD we watch show nds talk talk until then . yups . level 17 lers :D yayes ! so happy lors , this time i take license myself . oolala(: nds i really becoming noob in audition lers , so siians . humphs . thens yesterday early morning meet baby , after that i went to bt timah to tighten my braces . so coincidence , junhao call me ask me go out slack . so we 2 took cab go tiffy's house play play . then jitao i sms ahkai to meet me , thens junhao cabbed me home again . hahas . thanks love :D

DEANNGGUOSHENG .
i'm sorry for what i've done . really . i know that i've played with your feelings th other time . but i really did loved you , for like really long . but i enjoyed th moment of holding a torch for you better than steading with you . i rather be your buddy , where we can go really crazy . like those times at chalet , you talked to me about your stuff . yups . i'll try my best to gain back your trust , buddies forever okay(:

JINHUIIIIIIIII .
let me love it right this time . sometimes , i have my 小姐脾气 . then make you go sot sot . 对不起 , i didn't do it on purpose . yahs ? wait until our relationship stable lers , then i won't so sot sot lers . cause now not stable so i also wills scared . yous also rights ! hahas . baby 我爱你 !

KORKOR: sowiie leh nt iie dont wan ding is if iie ding where gt maney pay ue angry kor arrrrrr?????
haish . don't know lahs !
x ; LYN !: hehehe. :B lazy to hunt you , so come back school la! be a goodgood girl like you was in sec1. LOL.
hahas , eeeee . sec one so toot cans ! hahas , yous lazy hunt thens don't hunt . i shall MIA :DD
HAZEL♥: toot luh you! i don't like him okay._. haha! woman ar, you siao ding dong already! haha xP
yahs , i also think i sot sot already xD
kailin: ers i private my blog . give me your blog email i invite you .
okays(:
jovi'daso: iie quess ue q0rt sth to ask about th friendster comment
s thinq right?
nothinq to ask luhhs , i also don't care ders(:

part one . matah chu .

2008-06-22T19:32:00.004+08:00

KANINABU CHOU CHEEBYE ! ( knnb ccb :D )
dulandulandulandulan . pekcek siahhs . yesterday early morninq took bus to evon`marmiie ders house . slack slack wait tils saozi come thens marmiie , saozi , kor nds me went to buqis slack osho . jitao we reach there marmiie jitao want to drink aqain then she qo buy beer . ii siians jipua , keep drink drink . we qo same hanqout place , AGAIN , to smoke lors . th security guard saw me smokinq but didn't say anythinq =X after that went to take neoprints(: don't look so qood this time round . hair toooooo short ): ii want it lonqer mans , rahhhhs ! then qo play lan . jitao first sonq ii play ( canon 2007 .____. ) ii chain x7 :D but onlys a 105 bpm sonq . siians luhhs . th lan sucks like fuck , sibeii laq somemore noisy luhhs . thens don't know do what thens ii didn't want marmiie qo withs us to lan cause she keep say she sehseh , later qo make trouble at other people ders territory how . somemore her pattern ii abit irritated yesterday . don't knows whys =//

so korkor nds me send saozi home thens we went down tenmile meet baby , over there played lan aqain . over there qot trashed some rounds . siians . went to played a fool around withs kor . like qoinq to rooftop sinq sonq , shootinq ice , playqround maniac , hopscotch ( this took forever .. ) , nds many many lors . three plus ahkai came nds meet us . went back lan , see baby nds g.henq play pool . other people ii forget their names lers . hurhur . jitao dulan whens baby qo play audii without jio . rahhhhs ! thens ahkai say want eat macs .____. say use her ezlink pay , so left lan qo to plaza . so suay so suay so suay suay suay suay . whens crossinq road see matah . DIAOS LUHHS . jitao kena freaked out cause ii qot chionq hoonki withs me . nabei , then bobian kena screen then went withs kor to juronq hq . ahkai qot let off cause she "neber" do anythinq . lols . over there cold like shit nors . in the end ii take th blame , ii lazy qo say lies nds say is kor ders fault . cause ii qot do ii dare admit . no need ask other people help me dinq ders , so what ii zhabor , osho bo bian th other one osho no want dinq th thinq . haish .

so orhkonq $200 then can leave liaos , lucky siahs . if ii repeat offence wills risk kena expel from school lors . cheebye ! ii want qo back school want hors . nds expel simi expel , ii bo any lanjiao school now okays . on th road quarrel withs daddy . he jitao qan me whens we left th hq . ii pekcek thens osho qan back . thens he keep scold me tmdtmd , ii dulan thens ii shoot out knn lahs . but neber tio qan for sayinq vulgarities .____. so dumb luhhs , ii tio qan for not doinq thinqs , but ii don't qet qan for sayinq vulgarities . swee hors .

come home thens qo orhorh liaos =i

babyboi: baby aii loveyou ferever !!!! neber endin story xD
lols . copy cat !
♥xiiao'qirl: called you ask want go out nots thats all (:
uhhh , ohhhh-kays ?
x ; LYN !: yes you must come to school ! :D or i'll hunt you down and drag you back .
hahas , ii osho want okays ! bleahhhs , com ehunt me if yous can :DD

2008-06-21T07:26:00.002+08:00

Baby, I love you okay. Don't think too much, don't have so much doubt for our relationship. Cause I really do love you, I may be a hongster last time but I'm not anymore. Yesterday I joked about taking number from those 4 (superb ugly) guys, i'm not serious about it. I promise I won't leave you, promise that our story would be a never ending one. Believe me yahs? School going reopen, and I'm not sure if I will be schooling again or not. But even if I am, I will try my best to fork out time to accompany you. Okay? It's going to be alright, cause I only love you(:

until now, then and next time, my love for you will be never ending. you are the only in my heart, boy. more than any others that I had before. never learned to treasure them, they were as if nothing to me. but you are going to be different, you will be my last romance. right?

jovi'daso: ^_________________^ iie am goinq retard soon ><
(: huhhhhs , whys ! don't do silly thinqs okays ! =\\

2008-06-20T20:40:00.002+08:00

this few day so siians ; always like no money thens cannot buy hoonki nors . so siians . last night went down meet baby nds go lan shop there ton again . whole night play play play audii at th lan like machiam machine . then recruited new people again , lols . so siians nahs . don't feel like bloggin lers . tag tag , blog next time(:

jovi'daso: no lahh, love u more! hehes
aiyohs ; ii know yous love hims more nahs ! xDD
HAZEL♥: eh girl! where you get that weird idea i like him! no luh hahaha. yeah kay, go out soon! (: you going back sc?
not sure lehhs , depends lors . hahas , ii think yous do yeahs !
KORKOR: hahas paiseh o0 nvr go wit you dont angry o0 my dearest mei heehee
yous pangseh me again ):

2008-06-17T21:51:00.002+08:00

drank drank drank alot last niqht .

last last niqht went out to ton aqain cause baby ask me .__. but this time sneak out of house tio cauqht siahs . siians nors . but ii heck care , jiatao just walk off nds qo down . peii baby at th tenmile lan shop . but in th end ii qo play audi then he sit next to watch until orhorh . hahas ;

around six plus morninq qo take bus to ahbee/kor ders house . slack there until quite late thens fucker nahs , durinq noon qot people come . sisi`baobeii qo knock th door so hard , ii thouqht who come siahs . then huixin plus jiajia`mama osho qot come . somemore 3 more cheebye`kia osho qot come lahs . one is th stupid matah . fuckfuckfuck that cheebye matah ! ii damn dulan hims , he qo steal marmiie ders phone ii think . then he qot money nds everythinq , first time meet hims he damn poor cans . poor like beqqer . like what th fuck nahs . then he brouqht us to kallanq KFC makan , his treat . BUT THEN HORS , WHEN AHBEE/KOR NDS ME GO HOME FIRST RIGHT , HE GO TELL JIAJIA`MAMA THAT IF I NEVER GO HE COULD HAVE TREATED THEM SUSHI cheebye ! yous don't like me , so ? yous think ii like you arhs ! your face like PIG like that can , fiqure osho lahs . so qross . for your fuckinq information , NONE of us like yous . so yous can kindly just fuck off nds qo stack one paikia matah , where we all think you bhb , xiasuay . please lahs , yous are just another normal quy . yous want compare is it ? my intelliqence level is so much hiqher than yours , nds my looks is definitely 300 times better than yours . not beinq bhb but is he laolan cans .

arhhhhhs . at niqht marmiie nds me qo panjanq meet baby . then after that elieen`jie jio me qo juronq slack . so evon`marmiie , baby(: , raymond ( baby th friend ) nds me qo juronq point me her . after that we walk to dasao ders condo first nds meet saozi talktalk then we qo slack at carpark . but dasao qo home of course . then jie osho don't know she fuck until where , disappear .___. so only qot 4 of us qo carpark rooftop slack . then ii drink until sehseh qo sleep on th floor .

in th end morninq ii take bus home withs baby nds raymond . then baby send me home first(: yupyups ;

KORKOR: humph dont love kkor ler huh????
hahas ; love lahs love lahs .
KORKOR: haish
lols ?
KORKOR: BLEAHS gt stead le act dua paile lohs
yous more duapai ;DD
KORKOR: heehee
hahas ?
KORKOR: not like oyu lohs more duapai =XXXX
ii already duapai before have stead =XX jokejoke .
KORKOR: lalalalala hais dun argue wit you lerh naninani poopoo
lols , ii osho can . nani nani poopoo !
lauren: it's so fun to play iwth your tagboard haha
hahas , whys !
val(: hahah! what. you never tag me lor. anyway. hi! (x
hahas , finefine ii wills qo taq soon(:
jovi'dasao: hohos iiewhere q0rt dun lorve u ! LOL.. ue also must last lonq !
hahas ; sure nots ? must be love kor more riqhts ! hahahas . both samesame .

2008-06-15T21:34:00.000+08:00

last last niqht ii did somethinq real bobo ;

at around 11 plus baby sms nds told me that he wills come my house downstairs ders kopitiam makan . then ask me qo down osho . ii bo bian , lanlan . feel like qo down osho don't feel cause scared marmiie wake ups . she dumbdumb luhhs , never work .

so in th end ii slowly slowly open door nds qo out around 2 plus 3 . qo meet baby nds his friends . but ii sibei dao like never talk or qo near hims , keep on phone hurhur . paiseh ohhs . we walk all th way to th lan shop at tenmiles there . then 5 plus like that ii take bus qo korkor th house . slack there until 4 plus then we qo bugis meet jovi`dasao nds dianna`aiai(:

we went to th usual hanqout smoke smoke drink drink beer . sibei shiok lors . thens ii decided not to qo home nds ton , qot jovi`dasao marmiie nds kor to ton withs me . dianna went home , then we four took bus to tenmile lan to play lan . siians nors , my hand really cannot play anymore lehs . see red key thens ii stun alreadys .

haish . after playplay thens qot license . dasao help me pass within one time . propro . if me sure don't know how liaos , hahas . thens qot people challenqe kor to audii . thens kor nds dasao owned them 2 rounds or 3 . lols . swee :DDDDD

after that we arque about qoinq where to ton . awhile say qo aljunied , awhile pasir ris , awhile bt panjang . lame lahhs . in th end we decided qo pasir ris , withs baby nds his friends . took niqht rider at 2 plus to orchard . when at orchard damn retarded . qot this bangala come say hello to me ._. ii was damn freaked out cans . then when ii the way to pasir ris marmiie they all say no want qo liaos cause very late already ( it was 5 plus already , cause we walk all over bt panjang to look for th bus ) . so in th end ii withs baby nds his friends qo pasir ris . hur , panqseh me lors kor they all .

when reach pasir ris , sibei siians . don't know they qo there for what ders . so we qo th beach there sit sit . then qot one time ii accidentally for asleep while lyinq on baby . but lucky he talk ii wake up . if not when ii really dou liaos sure cannot wake me ders . around 7 plus 8 we qo take cab qo back bt panjanq then ii qo home lors . thens bathe sleeeeeep until now =XX

baby called me then ii woke up hahas ;

♥xiiao'qirl-x: why me aqainnnnn ? you saboh queen lehs you. and junkai is the saboh kinq x( aiyohs. i so damn poorthing cans =/
hahas , cause he saboh thens ii saboh yous lors =XX
♥xiiao'qirl-x: fine fine. i know i'll always have yous qirlqirl. but wall to wall sounds nicer whats (: hors ?
cause is my rinqtone now that sonq riqhts ! hehhehs .
XIAOZU: YOU PIG LUR! YOU BLUFF ME D: say want come meet me in the end sleepsleepsleep. nvm you is zhu i know. hah.
sorrys lahhs daddy =XX
XIAOZU: imissyoukgirl. my baobei nu-er ar, lastlong if you can =D which i not sure . hah
ehhs , ii miss yous too . ii wills last lonq one okays !
XIAOZU: &so stupid is im msging you nows but yet i tag LOL
yahs , cause yous bobo =XX
XIAOZU: daddy love nu-er .
love daddy too(:
XIAOZU: ok tag enuff lerh. biies , muackies
hahas okays .
babyboi: baby woaini xD muz stay happie hor ,, aii wil alwaes be by ur side
iiloveyous too(: yupyups wills happy ders . ii osho wills stay by yous ohhs (:
YENHUA ROCKS :D: oooo your tag board is so cool. it like follows where ever i scroll/!!! eheheh.. but the text is so small i can't see what i'm typing okay
ofcourse it's my tagboard xDD hahas , it's BIGBIGBIG okays . ii can see :D
Jun Kai: ha ha i very important to neh... ga ga ga
hahas , yous very important what ? huhhhhhhhhhs .

2008-06-13T17:46:00.000+08:00

can ii qo whack that junkai`stead uhhs ! everytime saboh me do survey/quiz ders . but nbmiinds , ii qet to qo saboh others also wahahahahas . ii like to saboh people so fun(: nds ii'm qetting addicted to playinq twiit . it's like so damn fun mans ; yous quys can try playinq hahas . anyways here's th bobo quiz .

TAGGED BY JUNKAI :D

Rules & Regulations of this quiz is ...

a) people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

b) tag 6 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Q : If your lover betrayed you, what would be your reaction?

A : if ii really loved him , ii wills be like wtf nds cry ?

Q : If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?

A : have 3 thousand more wishes ; to reach others' expectations for me , nds last lonq withs him(:

Q : Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?

A : ii did , nds still am wondering =\\

Q : Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?

A : prolly am nds tryinq to overcome it .

Q : Would you change yourself for the person you love?

A : ii would if he ask .

Q : Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
A : both , it's fun loving someone nds beinq loved

Q : How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

A : as lonq as ii love him .

Q : If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?

A : uhhs , just let it qo ? cause ii'm attached yo ;D

Q : Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
A : yups ; my family nds all th fcuked up thinqs around me .

Q : Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
A : sometimes ; it's qood cause it means ii still like hims =XX

Q : Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
A : like duhh , he seems photocopied .

Q : Who are currently most important people to you?
A : baby ! ; ahkai`boy ; xiiaovin`kor ; evon`marmiie nds all my qans .

Q : Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
A : quess not ; ii qot what ii wanted .

Q : What's the ideal perfect relationship to you?
A : tionqxim nds beinq happy withs one each other(:

Q : Are you happy with your life?
A : excluding th fact dhat it's fcuked up , it's okay .

Q : Would you give all in a relationship?
A : depends ; like seriously .

Q : If you fall in love with 2 persons simultaneously, who would you pick? the lousier one? ORthe better one?

A: th one dhat ii really love(:

Q : What type of friends do you like?

A : wuxim ; trustworthy ; nds those dhat loves me . so fcuk _|_ off bitches nds bastards .

Q : Do you often wish there was something you could change?

A : yeahs , me .

Q : What do you notice when you first meet a boy/girl?

A : th hair nds piercinqs(:

6 people I tagged :
ahkai`boy ;
lyn`wifey ;
hazel ;
xiiaovin`kor ;
valerie ;
kenqyee`honey (:

han: ummm, u ask me tagg..so here it is..hi??
yous wanted my comment too okays !
♥xiiao'qirl-x: hahas x( what the hell banqing from wall to wall until die narhs (:
ii onlys say banq wall never say banq from wall to wall oh !
♥xiiao'qirl-x: and the confessions in the public thing aint funny at all cans x( its like ****s, so fcuking annoying. sichanlanda x(
hahas . heck dhat fcuker nahs . yous qot me !
♥xiiao'qirl-x: shyts*
lols .
Jun Kai: hey hey do a Survey on my blog ok must do uh... ^^ Take Cares
yous bobo , always saboh me D:

2008-06-12T21:12:00.000+08:00

todays so stupidd . hurhur . neber sleep whole niqhts dhens ii keep play audii withs kor nds dunch know who , qot dhis detergent`boy nds mr`baka . hahas . so play play nds sms bbaby`boy , kors nds baby Y ; left house at 8 plus qo kor ders house , shiok siahs . smoke hoonki lors . arhhhs , dhens 3:15 like dhat stead withs baby . lols . hahas ; so blur lahhs . qot dhis matah that sibeii quailan ! last niqht talk to me so nice , then today act eh zai . but he bo do me anythinqs but sibei laolan . he sometimes nice , fetch us qo everywhere ner . his car is shiok ders , but terrence one more shiok . speeding more fun :DD

dhen today see the poulougui . siians nahs , she bo wei gong when ii shoot her . whole time diamdiam ders . cheena`bitch arhs , dunch qo kaopeii my jiajia`mama . want dhen settle withs me . want throw mike at me is it ? ii waiting hors . if yous dare , ii dare peii yous play . yous dunch stack one paiikia behind me , ii shoot yous is infront of yous ders . not behind cans . yous be diam if yous humji hors . so pekcek luhhs , see her face ii want puke uhhs . yous think yous chio uhhs ? ii verys ugly osho more chio than yous okays ! fucker . today osho qot qo a lan withs xiiaovin`kor , jovi`dasao , sisi`baobeii nds huixin at eunos . so lousy lors ders lan , so laq ders . eeyerrs , ii no want qo there anymore hurhur .

wants qo audii lers . buhbyeeee (:

confessions in the public ;

2008-06-11T23:55:00.001+08:00

hahas . kai just told me stuff real funny . can't help it , i'm laugh till batou bing liaos . i think i need see doctor , everytime say want quit smoking in the end cannot ders . haish . today smoke like siao lehhs , cause 6 plus wake ups . then meet junhao awhiles to smoke . he spon me 7 sticks luhhs . then come back audi withs baby`boyy and jianwei they alls . knn , this cheebye person come kaopei me cans . so dulan luhhs ! he think he what , wear skinnys plus black and purple stripe shirt ands somemore wear beanie means ahbeng already arhs . somemore put BIGBIG at his msn say what mr beng here . i pui uhhs . you ahbeng then i what ? can go die arhs . don't even know what is chup then tell me you beng . cheebye kia , ask me don't kp him cause he always say vulgaities when he withs friends . but at msn don't say any . purlease , doesn't mean say vulgarities is beng already . my ahma also scold cheebye lanjiao lanpa , then what . she ahlian arhs ? diaos . please luhhs . want tio me then come luhhs . humji kia , i shoot him until he lanlan then faster go change his name to what mr hard . HUMJIKIA . still dare say weilun not beng , say weilun act eh zai . you also act . somemore he dare say i not paikia , is super guaiikia . please lors , i know i guaiikia . but more pai then yous can already . if i guaiikia you SUPER SUPER SUPER guaiikia . can go be dog already uhhs . kampong dog stay in your catholic high school and lick teachers ass can already . TAN EKKIAT , i post your name BIGBIG here . come luhhs . i wait for you to tio me onlys . i scared arhs . diaos . he totally screwed my mood lors .

RAHHHHS .

let me love it right this time .

2008-06-11T02:57:00.000+08:00

i'm quitting smoking. yups, am going to. i'm getting sick and tired of my lanky life now. is like i've been saying this for a million of times but it's really time for me to reflect and wake up. i'm not going to waste my life doing silly things anymore. spoke to bbaby`boy just now ; she's damn confuse of her life. but so am i. i have practically no idea what am i doing all this time. i seriously have to get back on track with my studies and every aspect of my life. sorry to some people, i might be MIA-ing to some of you. cause i want to get everything back on track first. i have changed seriously damn alot. from that really quaii person to a horrible and atrocious freak. it's time to wake up i guess. the qqirls`home lesson did serve a purpose, i'm not letting it go to drain. i shall be doing things right from now on. it's not going to be like *snap* and *poof*, everything back to normal. it's going to take time and effort. so my loves, give me some time. i shall adjust back to it. i'm getting really tired of all this. really fcuked up. yups.

x ; LYN !: the words on your tagboard is very like skinny lei . llurbbx uue w0rhz xiia0LIM ddhe twitts. LOL. *talent*
hahas skinny good mahs(: iloveyou too ! twit`queen ! 0hMMgeeZx . i suck at it D:
♥xiiao'qirl-x: sorry narhs. i dunno what am i doing now lors seriously. i need someone to save meeee. WO ZHEN DER HEN CONFUSED x( ahhs im going crazy ler narhs .
i'm confuse too my qqirl =X we 2 really should go bang wall, byebye lors .

2008-06-10T06:14:00.000+08:00

FUCK THIS WORLD UPSIDE DOWN .

Goddamn`you idiot . Why am I so stupid when you ask me to be with you that time I reject ? Whywhywhy , then now i'm pondering over the lost of you . It's all so screwed up and messy . Gosh . I really the most idiotic dumbass`fucker in this world . It could have been a beautiful picture , but I just have to create a mess to all this . Why am I so stupid . Seriously .
To JunHao and Jeffron ; thank yous baby and boyfriends . Today I crycry so stupid luhhs I know , but you 2 always there for me . Thank you . You 2 stop me from doing stupid things , if not I don't know what I could have done man . Killed somebody ? That's not impossible you know . It's just so easy to retrieve somebody's life . But yeahs , you 2 make life easier for me(: iloveyou :D and if I didn''t have you 2 I think all this years i'll be wasting my life to doing nothing at all . thanks for being my guardian angels for 6 years already .
Oh gosh , I feel like I owe them a dozen and dozen man . Later going see probation officer . Haish , hope my laobu don't paotou me out if not I sure die already . So sians siahs .

♥xiiao'qirl-x: lol so lame. i was just trying to copy you whats. i dont really hate them lahs. just dislike and maybe abit attached to them already by now. sighhhhh love you toos<3
tsktsk ; fineeee . anything you want do bahs . i fuck care you luhhs . if you really want to do this , you haven't gone through what i've been through . seriously . think about it .

2008-06-09T23:49:00.000+08:00

爱上你是一个错误.
I'm learning to let go ; Let go of someone that I've liked for a long time without realising it . I've got to learn how to be independent , and not rely on my other half . Like seriously , when I'm with somebody , I expect him to be there for me whereas I don't have to . It's like damn selfish of me . But instead , I'm there for someone who isn't my anyone at all . Gosh , that's like damn silly of me . Ahhhhh . I'm so pissed off with myself man . So pissed ): To let go of something I've had for a long time is really tough . So sick of this SICKENING feeling gosh . I wanna learn to love right man .

Anyway ! I WANT TO WATCH KUNGFU PANDA :DD Not because of ahkai`boy but cause JiaHao's recommendation . He said KFP is a nice show(: Maybe I'll go watch it with Evon`marmiie, Kelvin`kor and Jovi`dasao . Today morning korkor and Jovi`dasao stead oh :DD Hope they last longlonglongggggggggggggggggggggggggg . Tomorrow hope can see her , cause she say maybe want go out with us . Sians , only maybe . Ohwells . Hope can bahs :D Hahas .

♥xiiao'qirl-x: ohwells, its me whats. not like you dunno me(: im boreddd=/ and tired out. ILOVEYOU! IHATE - - - - - PEOPLE ;D
lols . you copy rabbit ! i say i hated them first okays ! lols . yayahs . iloveyou`baby :D
♥xiiao'qirl-x: relink`baby (:
i wills relink when i have time(:
KORKOR: hahas metoo^^
lols . korkor also rust liaos =X

2008-06-08T20:40:00.000+08:00

till the end of time; my love for you will always be here .
i'm so dang tired . last night slept at 4 plus cause play audition and blog . then after i switched off laptop , jeffron called me :O you stupid ! thank god i haven't sleep , call me so late . *ah-bish* talk to him until 6 like that then i go sleep liaos . today 3 plus then wake up . i really becoming pig =x saw benjamin's sms . hahas . so funny , he tonight going call me oh . korkor ; you want talk to him mahs ? if you want then you call me bahs , okays :D

i want to watch horror movie :DDD so someone DECENT come ask me go watch horror movie(: oror some comedy will also do . so sians . don't feel like playing audi . helped -CnB-Peacex pass her level 12 license test last night ; then today i pass my own level 14 license test(: oohlala . now level 15 already . yayes . i want to catch up with korkor , he level 19 already . humphs .

jia hao: fine...i tag...im not fat...i prefer fit and muscular...
good good ; tag more(: and hahas ! fit and muscular uhhs .. orhs okayokay .. =x
♥xiiao'qirl-x: wont i be missed too if i MIA? =/ especially you and me narhs. no more entertainment for them when there isnt US [:
hahahas . that's like uber ego luhhs .

2008-06-08T03:49:00.000+08:00

This is so baddddddddd . I've realized something . I'm being labeled as ahlian . Ahhhhh . I'm not ahlian okays ! I'm a fringing normal person who came out of girls`home . (inserts surname) JIAHAO ! You fatty ! What have you been telling your friends about me arhs . I see ahlian on your profile and taiwanese cat D: KaiKein said you have been talking GOOD about me, but I don't believe oh . AND AND AND, you read my blog WITHOUT tagging . ~~Stupid~~ PIGGGGG . TAG luhhs . I don't want to be ahlian you pigggggg ! The taiwanese cat thing I shall treat it as a compliment(: Cause I'm nice, and EGO xDD ohwells. JIAHAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, play audition with me oh . I like playing with you audition . Cause I get to win :DDDD Though I lost to you once . ONCE . LALALALAS . FASTER GANSTALEEEEEEE ; play with me audition and forget about WOW ! WOW is bad , real BAD . Audition is good for health :DD So play audition moremoremore :D

Anyways, shall post what happened today . Let me see .. Woke up at 4.30 pm :D Yes, I know I'm a pig thank you(: Sat infront of the laptop until about six, went to bath then went out with my mother for the tu-pid wedding dinner. GOSH, I saw AhBen`laogong and XiaoZu`daddy. Ask mummy if can go slack withs them but my laobu don't let. Rahhhhs ): So in the ends they 2 go arcade play DDR and I went to the stupid dinner withs my laobu. Around 9 like that I say I go toilet at JEC there then I go find thems. Stupid siahs, when I just reach there they just go off go chinatown there the KTV. So sians lors, they say sorry to me cause they don't know that I wills go meet them (during the dinner they spammed me sms to ask me meet them, then I keep say cannot go). Aiyahs, neverminds. In the end I sit there alone and talk on the phone withs ahkai and smoke lors. Smoke alone the feeling very not nice =\\

Around 10 like that go back the dinner place. Eat eat eat then eleven like that go home. Reach home play audi until 2.30 then go bath then continue play audi til 3.30 like that then i come here blog liaos. Sians, now I go smoke then I go orhorh lers.

♥`boyy: ohs i thought what you ask me to do. hahs okoks. i'll do it (:
yeaps , yous should do it :DD
♥`boyy: sabosabosabohhhhh ;D
i sabo you ; you sabo other people(:
KORKOR: hahas psps my blog goin rust lerh hahas lazy update
glad you know going rust liaos xD
val(: ahahhaa hazel also complain about your cbox! xDDD change laaa. biggerbiggerbigger!!!!!!! my degree alr bad enough liao
hahas fine ! when i'm not so lazy that time I will change it . go see the eye-specialist (i forgot what is it called ) xD
♥`boyy: lols whats wrong with all of us? ya know me you kenqyee joey all mia-inq soon. wtf-.- but quite cool yea;D
we should all MIA then the world will miss us , especially ME :DDDD
NICOLE LEE: OMG VAL IS RIGHT YOUR CBOX IS BLINDING HELLO!
it's not blinding , i can still see :D

2008-06-07T02:02:00.000+08:00

Okay ... This is so fucked up. This is my fringing fourth post already today. Ohwells(: I'm just feeling emotional that's all. Aiyahs monkey say monkey do. Didn't want to listen to advices last time now then regret also no use. Rahhhhhhhhs, I fringing hate the people from ***** and that fcuking fucktard bitch *** ***. I shall be MIA-ing soon. So people, don't be surprise if you don't see me in MSN, friendster and my blog. The only way you guys are gonna be able to contact me is ... audition(: No way am i gonna leave my baobeii account hanging. Or else just sms me, if i happy then reply you all ; not happy? Then too bad, you guys aren't gonna be seeing me thens.

MISSING IN ACTION

call nineninenine to look for me(:
if you know the correct line extension, then good for you.

2008-06-07T01:48:00.001+08:00

Boy, am I wondering that if you will ever read this post. I didn't mean to hurt you, I really did like you and in fact love you. But the month that I was away, lots of things happened. I've changed, and you indeed changed too. I told you once, I don't mind what you did in that month cause it's just another obstacle for us. You said I didn't care about you, treated you like you weren't mine. I guessed you are right, I admit all those time i've treated you like you were nothing. Caused, I couldn't find that feeling I had for you before I went in side there. The feeling that could bring me enchanted to you, the feeling that got me attracted to you. The feeling that had me falling in love with you. I remember those times that I could sit with you, listening to you telling me all those experience you had, all those hurtful moments that you've went through. I'm sorry that i've hurt you once again like what the others had done, inflicting another wound to that fragile heart of yours. I'm sorry, Boy. But one month not seeing you, communicating with you, had created a barrier between us. Maybe it's just my psychological barrier, but it's really hard for me to understand you. Hence, I may be cold towards you. But it's all over now. It's impossible for us to be together anymore, right?

Boy, I Love You. ♥

2008-06-06T23:05:00.000+08:00

WHY IS EVERYTHING SO FUCKED UP?
I am so pissed off with this somebody okay. Faker. Hypocrite. I'm damn damn disappointed with that person, totally. I'm not going out with anyone until someone decent ask me out. So someone decent ask me out :D So much for me treating you as someone so important and like what, you just totally suck. Not like you said something bad or what, just that I'm disappointed with you. That's all.

I want to do something right for once. Something that won't stir much dislikes from anyone, even the people that I hate or hate me. Oh whatever, I don't care if you hate me cause it's your mouth, your mind and your fucking life to hate me. I'll be nice and just like you(: yeah. I'm nice, so fuck off if you hate me. Rahhhhhs ): I'm not making much sense. I'm just uber pissy now man. Humph. Tomorrow's schedule is like damn uncertain. Should I go out with Kelvin`korkor and Evon`marmiie not? I scared I go out already then will forget to come home. I so don't want to breach my probation man, and i've got a dinner to attend tomorrow night. *taking my phone* And just great, just received a sms from QinEn. "girll ah . tmr wannx g0 0ut wifx mii ndx jeffr0n marx ? missh euu leiix ." So where should I go man. I want to go out with decent people, not inferring that QinEn and Jeffron not decent okays! Don't angry hors QinEn`bebe and Jeffron`boyfriend. Think lers later then say bahs. Sians.

lauren: violet stop breaching probation leh ): and stop smoking!!!! loveyou:)
I will try not to breach it already &I will try to stop smoking . loveyou too !
val(: im going to go blind reading your cbox man
Hahas , sorrys xDD
Jun Kai: what is wuxim?
Boxim ders opposite lors .
Jun Kai: ha ha sah boh you
Yalors , yous retard sabo me xDD
HAZEL♥: girl ahh! (: haha, sabo me ah. tsk xP hahaha. your cbox the words are so teeeeeeenyweeeny! (: haha. go out sometime soon kkay? (:
Neh ni neh ni poo poo :D is it that small ? :O hahas okays , you jio me go out lors .
HAZEL♥: love you! ♥
loveyou too !
xiiaobabby: uhs is okays narhs . meet up so0n norhs . honey qot quaiis quaiis marhs ? ily <3
Never guai nahs , already breach probation 3 times lers . But wills try to be more guai . ily .

2008-06-06T16:07:00.000+08:00

Lols , Jun Kai`stead ask me do this lao`kokkok the survey hahas . Sorrys oh . Now I am going to do it and sabo eight more people to do it :DDDD

Survey Instructions:

-Remove one question from above & replace it with your own.
-Tag eight people, list them down at th end of th post.
-Notify them in their chatbox that they've been tagged.

1) How long will you wait for someone you love?
- tils my feelings fade for that someone .

2) What do you hope for now?
- finish my probation without breaching it .

3) What is the last thing you do/say if tomorrow is the end of th world?
- hug all my love ones(:

4) Do you hate your friends sometimes?
- depends .

5) What will you do if your best friend has been kidnapped?
- pretends to be detective and goes looking for him/her :D

6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- of course , they are pretty .

7) Who will you choose between your ex boyfriend & your current boyfriend?
- my current boyfriend (don't have one) , ~~9 ex to choose from~~ (it's over so let it be) .

8) What's your desired age of marriage?
- 18 or 19 . just a desire , right ?

9) Are you happy with your life now?
- nope , everything is so fcuked up .

10) What if your crush asked you out?
- faints on the spot , not ! just go out lors , he is just another homo-sapien please .

11) What will you do when you have a crush that knows you have a crush on him/her?
- be so embarrassed that i won't be able to face him .

12) What feelings do you hate the most?
- to be cheated , by friends , family or anyone .

13) What will you do if you fall in love with a guy/girl?
- stay by him , doesn't expect anything in return .

14) What are you looking forward to in the coming weeks?
- how would i know , i'm not psychic :D

15) The most important thing in your life.
- people .

16) Who do you hope to always be there for you?
- those that i love and trust .

17) Do you find life meaningless?
- depends which aspect .

18) Who do you love the most?
- myself . plus my family , gans and friends(:

19) Do you believe that there's 'True Love'?
- nope , so someone out there make me believe in this skeptic phrase .

20) What's your greatest wish?
- for all my other wishes to come true :D

21) What will you change if you can turn back time?
- nothing , i will do the same things again . it's just parts and parcel of life .

i'll take off question 7 and replace with "Who will you choose between your ex boyfriend & your current boyfriend?"

the eight people below, please don't reject and don't break the rules. thanks :D

kailin , kelvin , hazel , lyn , xinyuan , lauren , kengyee ands sky(:

2008-06-06T01:41:00.000+08:00

today 7 plus in the morning jiu go out lers . cause tu-pid jeffron ands junhao ask me go 240 there slack . they buy dunhill`frost for me to smoke , cause the last time i was complaining so long never smoke dunhill lers . so smoke smoke abit only 7 sticks jiu stop liaos . so fucked up lors , jeffron was like pulling my extension til one drop out . thens he keep saying sorry , even knee down luhhs . so funny . okay lahs , i forgive you(: eleven like that they pei me go bt timah for my dental appointment . change color liaos then i tired want go home . suppose to meet korkor and marmyy ders , but they 2 pigg . call them then they never pick up . jeffron and junhao stay at bt timah ands go play pool , didn't felt like playing pool so i went home . at home play audi then wanted to pass recruitment test but dianna called made me miss out one perfect , already manage to get the x1 combo needed (i had x5 combo :DD ) ands the 350 k score (which i had 500 k plus ) yeahs . the first time flunk cause of dianna . bleahs . kup her liaos then second time , miss 2 fm and 1 cfm cause of korkor cause he kept calling me to know how come my house . fuck lors . haish .

in the end around 4 went out of house meet korkor . we went fajar , which got fined $50 each . no want to elaborate . slack withs him and marmyy til 7 plus then joveis come meet me to slack awhile then he go . marmyy ands kor pei me walk home then they don't know do what lahs . i reach home at 8.30 . diaos , breach probation again . ohwells . whatever .

si audi . no mood play today liaos . night peopleeeeee .

2008-06-04T21:26:00.000+08:00

tired tired tired tired. today so funnnn lors :D
also tiring hahas. today early morning wake up got panda eyes ): cause last night talk on phone withs ahkai and korkor until this morning 5 o`clock lors. 10 o`clock i wake ups, then prepare to go for dental appointment. after that when go out of house at the bus stop mummy call me ands told me that my appointment is tomorrow == stupids me, never realise it. thank god mummy call ands tell me, if not i gong daidai go there for nothing. so in the end jitao go gan`marmyy theres. stupid korkor hahas, make me addicted to this hunting game. so fun(: after that around 1 plus korkor leave house to meet xiao`sisi and her meimei to go swimming. i lazy go swim so i pangseh kor, sorrys oh. after that me, ahkai and marmyy go bugis meet jiajia`mama ands this cheena`bitch. fcuk her lors, marmyy and mama want watch horror withs me ders lehs. but because that bitch don't want watch, then we cannot pangseh her in the end never watch. chou cheebyeeeeee. damn dulan withs her. then what, keep getting hungry. so fat already still eat. sians lors. around 4 like that we go paya lebar city plaza there. sing karaoke :DDDD

korkor came ands meet us with xiao`sisi and the meimei. then me and korkor keep playing arcade like sotsot. then all the coupon we won we exchange for one pig handphone holder and lollipop. after that when i makan that time, korkor and sisi go play agains. then korkor exchange for me lollipop xDDDD cause cause the first time we won that time only enough to exchange for 1 lollipop after we exchange for the pig, which we gave to kai since she like it =\\ then this time he go play again and exchange for me 1 lollipop also. lalalalas.

after that we go play pool. korkor win one round i also win one. so draw(: then after that we go sing. cheebye kia lors that cheena`bitch. she sing very unpleasant. U-N-P-L-E-A-S-A-N-T. then sing until i got migrain luhhs ): then after that me and ahkai want sing Can't fight the moonlight and I lay my love on you. cause i still having cough then abit no voice sing whats, so i sing softer abit then she kpkb go tell mama and marmyy that i might as well don't sing. thens marmyy told us. i buitahan, jitao stare at her and say very loud, "please lahs, don't know who sing like kill chicken like that. still bui ba go sing. skin so thick. at least i know my voice not very nice now, so i sing softer mahs. knn. " then i get more and more buisong cause she diao me. so i say, "cheebye, buisong arhs. come lahs. i scared you arhs. knn, only know how to say behind people." she diamdiam bo wei gong. humji fcuker ):

after that ahkai go at 7.30 like thats. then me and kor turn to sing duet. we sang "liang shan bo and zhu ying tai" (: lala, this time i sing LOUDLOUD okays. and i think should be not bad bahs ? =x hehs. then i need rush off, cause i was super late. my probation is at 8 and at that time i'm still at paya lebar. i at east but my house at west luhhs. sians. so i took cab go daddy the house then makan withs daddy abit then after that he send me. then i just reach home at 9. funfun. i upload pictures next time about today ders. sians, forget take pictures when at the ktv lounge =\\ haish. if not can take down my first time go ktv withs twinnie lors ):

2008-06-03T20:29:00.000+08:00

today finally better lers (: fever subsided lers. hahas thens today also go see my supervision officer. stupid lors. my ah-mummy go tell the officer i got go out and everything. somemore still paotoh the officer i got smoke. sians lor. but in the end the officer only say this time neverminds say cause is her fault that 2 weeks she cannot meet me then cause me to not able to go out. so just give me warning :D and the smoking thing say she can understand so give me one more chance. yeahs. but so fucking stupid thing is, i MUST switch off my phone by eleven, and my laptop too. like wth!? oh wells. but at least my curfew is at 8(: wanted 8 or 9. then mummy reallys give me 8. enough lers bahs. utmost go out earlier lors. at least won't late for home and breech my probation.

after that i go jurong meet ahben, judith, felix, xiaozu, nuo`bi, jacquely, estie and chin`xiang. but when i reach jec only got ahben there nors. the others so slow. hahas. then ahben treat me eat waffles first oh. so niceeeeeeee :D after about 20 minutes which seems like forever, xiaozu`daddy and felix`boyboy come. they sms me to go mrt control station meet them oh, siao sehs. from the mrt station i walk to the kopitiam to meet ahben then now ask me walk back to mrt station. bleahhs. in the end i tell them come themselves. then xiaozu`daddy finally gave in and sms me, "haix okok, hu ask u is my baobeii nu-er XP." wakakakas, too bad oh daddy :D not long then the others come lers. then we all go walkwalk then nuo`bi sweetheart buy me new concealer. hehs. yayes, thankyou sweetheart. she say is a welcome back present(: then so tu-pid lors estie, chin`xiang and judith. they go take the winter clothings at some budget shops along the way and started wearing them. and chin`xiang looked the most idiotic cause he actually wore the coat inside out. andandand he got rashes after that xDD so funny. around 3 plus we took train to bt gombak, then we walk to xiaoguilin. so many memories there. got with samuel, kenneth and han. also got with my FMks and with xiaozu`daddy they alls nors.

when reach lers, jacquely`bigbird go home and bring down for us martel, vodka and ethirty-three. ahben help me mix vodka and martel together. wahseh, damn strong siahs. then we go take ice from gan`crocodile ders shop. croco`mama not at shop today cause she sick ): so sad. so long never see her lers. so croco must help at shop, cannot come pei us. so we pei him awhile at the shop. hahas, so funny lors. one bangala come wanted to buy toilet`paper. then nuo`bi and xiaozu`daddy so bad, tell the bangala "eheheh? i thought ah-neh is use banana leaf one. when upgrade liaos arhs?" what the fuck lors! hahas. so stupid xDD then we take hoonki from croco shop. shiok siahs the iRap. didn't know croco`mama got order iRap lehs. yayes. free hoonki for me lors. others all must pay xDD thankyous croco, so nice to me :DDD after that we go take the bomb-thingy and throw on walls. also got eat lots of lollipops today. lalalas. ohoh, i got go daddy house awhile to borrow his slipper cause i cut my leg then cannot where my pumps. sians. and i wore it back home, forgot to return daddy. hahas. but xiaozu`daddy say neverminds give me. but i feel bad lors, the slipper is new ders lehs. he haven't wear before =x

today fun siahs. i want go out withs you all againnnnnnnnnnnnn :D
like so long never see you all and talk liaos, then last night estie and nuo`bi saw me online then they add me into the bigbig convo with everyone inside. then they ask me go out today. hahas. yupyups, promised ahben wills go out withs him ders. and of course the others gans. i thought ahben last time like abit don't like me ders lors, today superb nice to me lehs. somemore ask me be his gan`laopo. then i ask hims, i thought you don't like me ders. he say where got.

ahben: uhhhh, vi arhs. ermmm, can... erm.. be my gan`laopo or nots?
me: eeyers, i thought you don't like me.
ahben: where got.
me: got! last time you always show me black face lors *sulks*
ahben: no lah, cause last time don't know you well mahs so like black black face lors.
me: oh. so means you know me very well now lahs! bhb xD
ahben: yalors, i thick skin mahs *smile ;advertising for darlie*
me: lols anything.
felix: oi. she my gan`girlgirl leh. never ask me for permission can be her gan`laogong or not. *step fierce*
ahben: mai kpkb lahs. xiaodidi, wait long long.
felix: haish, who ask me only 14. *sulks*

hahas, ahben was like damn funny can. you will never guess that he already 19 lehs. he look like only 14 or 15. somemore shortshort ders. but taller than me nahs =x then everytime he want buy hoonki from 7-eleven must bring NRIC if not the cashier won't believe he 19 already, legal age to buy. hahas so funny xD felix also only step sad ders. after awhile he come chasing after me to play water bomb withs him lahs.

lovelovelove today :D

lynnnnn ; hellos babe :DD you take care too, meet up soon :DDDD
ahkai ; hahas yeah! lot oneeeeeeee trip never plan properly. so last minute lors. tomorrow, want?

2008-06-02T01:12:00.000+08:00

Seedlings turn overnight to sunflowers ; Blossoming even as we gaze .
so pekcek luhhs , today like no mood again lors . play audi until so lousy . keep losing battle party but in the end recoup back come dens after one round of union bp .still lose 4k plus . hurhur . so pekcek luhhs . i so want go aljunied today ders lors . wanted to meet dianna and korkor ders siahs . but then daddy say today he cannotttttttt . haishhhhhhhhhhh , so pekcekkkkk . i do things now like all out of order one . play also cannot play audi properly . only get so little score . sians . wait until fever subside first bahs . now still 37.5 . sians nahs . i miss my baby ;she inside hostel now siahs . must wait 4 months thens cans meet you . haish . don't worry kays , dianna and i wills wait for you come meet us . remember our plan for oversea trip together okays :DDD

pekcek luhhs . cannot post properly .
nights .

ahkai`boyy -hahas cause i pro mahs . i sick still run here and there ders (: sorry hors , i never notice the sms when you sms me okays D: duibuqi . hahas , yahs i felt old xDD
dino -whatever luhhhhhhhhhhhs .

2008-06-01T17:41:00.000+08:00

You're every breath that I take ;You're every step I make
today so rubbish sehs . wake ups , then after that papa come pick me up go bugis meet jeanette and qinen`bebe . around one plus junhao, jeffron and meisi come meet us also . hahas ! junhao cut his hair , so funny siahs . butbut still nice luhs . just that your tail look damn weird cause cause the highlight is so weird luhs ! anyways bought 2 new shirts, new foundation ands perfume :D lalalalas . my wallet got hole lers lahs . everything cost over $ 200 ): die lers lahs . i no need shop for very long lers lors, i pok-gai liaos . at 4 like that daddy come pick me up . cause the others going clubbing but i cannot go lors . then they keep asking me go luhs . stupid ! except junhao keep asking them not to ask me go cause he no want me breech probation . then they also say yahors so in the end they go without me D:

somemore see doctor today, cheebye luhs . i got so many medicine . for fever, for inflammation, for cough, for running nose, antibiotics and 3 more i cannot remember lers . sians . i think i can don't makan liaos, just eat medicine full can liaos .

and i think i posted the previous due to some retarded emotion break down . i felt olddddddd and full of experience at that time :DDDD but i'm neither old nor full of experience now that i've embraced myself again :D i'm not moody lers :D

:) -ohh , thank yous(: but you are ..?
yenhuaaaaa -hahas, okay luhhs. i really promise you next time i see you i get you sweets :D okays ?
ahkai`boyy -lols you blur bodoh! it's okay, i just felt old when i posted that post =x hahas, i've seen my doctor today, have you ? (okayyyy , that sounded like some kinda commercial speech xDD )
korkor -hahas okayyyyyy lahs ! you very ~~wuxim~~ lahs .
dino - ~~saranghaeyo~~ boy ): [is you say like that first ders hors]

2008-05-31T22:04:00.000+08:00

My prince under disguise, how you fooled me with those eyes.
I'm thinking if this is right. Maybe when we first started out it's was already wrong. We should have stayed the same, maybe it would have been better. At least then, you understood me and I understood you too. Thanks Jeffron for controlling me. I won't breech my probation, I don't want to step back into Girls`home again. It's a hell place, really scary. But thanks to my lovely gans. You guys made my life pretty in there. All the time in there seems to be really slow, and all differences mattered. Comparative, time flies while others are out here. Did they really missed me while i'm in there? Did they bother to contact me at all? Did they... All those thoughts are still bothering me. I'm so sick of life, so sick...

2008-05-31T10:50:00.000+08:00

39.4 degree celcius .
yayes , i'm going to dieeeeee :D
i'm running a damn high fever , and an unbearable cough plus flu .
last night damn fcuker luhhs . that pubor keep calling me . irritating cans , i need to sleep one lehs . stop fucking call me luhhs . it's downright irritating . so what I scold you vulgarities ? you may be my elder but you deserve it . stop being so childish can . yeahs , you very "teng" me . so ? you keep calling can get on my nerve also okays . and please me and your son is IMPOSSIBLE . so stop trying to matchmake us . gahs .

anyways , just now play audi . cheebye lors , i body pain and mind slow until only get 254k for 150 bpm song . rahhhhs , no mood play audition lers . very gan kk-or . don't know how spell uh .

ahkai`boyy ; hahas . neverminds nahs . but i'm not getting any better , diaos .
dianna ; ohs kkays . you too .

2008-05-30T14:43:00.000+08:00

This is so official, listen properly people. I cannot go out at all cause i'm running a 38.7 degree celsius fever. The fever is still oh-kay, the cough is the thing that's killing me. Cough cough cough the whole day I cannot sleep at all luhhs. Whole body sibei pain, machiam like going die. Gah. I want to go out with DIANNA, LAYSIEW, ANDRIANA and DIYANA. Actually we planned an outing tomorrow ders lors. But LaySiew`baby is in hostel ): Diyana`muffin also. Sians. Then today is my Andriana`cookie and Fidah`nu-er ders court date. Hope both can get probation. Then that TU-PID Dianna don't know MIA to where also. Yesterday her mother call me and tell me she missing I chuatio cans, cause I was sleeping before that =x Then at night Karen called me to tell me what happened, butbut now the thing is we all don't know where Dianna is =\\ Is she at home or whats. Stupid qqirl lahs you. Faster contact me okays :D

Going to train my NOOB account already (:
Buhbyeeeeee.

ahkai`boyy ;it's okay qqirl (: you get well soon too okays? loveloveY
dino ; huhhs ?

2008-05-29T22:05:00.000+08:00

I'M RUNNING A FEVER ):
stupidddddd, is it from the hospital visit or the rain or is it from ahkai ?
sians. today keep on sleeping. funny thing is i can play audition until i sleep on the table siahs. until melvin wake me up. melvin damn cute, he hold the sweet come give me lors. hahas, he everytime see me thens call me violet`jiejie. hahas, his meimei also verys cute. listen to the audition song then she dance dance. hahas.

aiyahhhhhhhhhhs. i keep sniffing nows. lazy post lers. HA-CHOOOOOO :D
hahas, joke from girls`home. girls`home babbiies, remember mahs ? xDD

2008-05-29T16:24:00.000+08:00

So fun yesterday :D
Yesterday morning mummy ands me go to Bradell again to see my officer. Cheebye, the stupid officer today go for course not in. Nabei luhhs, yous think I your who. Everytime go down then yous not there. First time yous sick, I can understand. But both times yous don't know how to phone me to inform me you cannot make it is it. Knn. Make me waste money take cab down, somemore after that I still cannot go out. Humphs. But when I over there I saw SuMin`marmyy ^^ Wahs, so chio lehs. Never wear specs ders marmyy so chio ohs. Hahas. She lucky lors, even before she get her curfew time her mother already let her go out lahs. Then after that I dulan, I quarrel withs mummy ask her let me go out. Then she say cannot and keep scolding me nors. Fuck lors. Damn dulan, I jitao go take train to aljunied ands go kelvin`korkor ders house. Then I call mummy on train say I wills reach home by 3.30. At kor ders house the dog, last time I not scared ders lors. Now I verys scared of thems, even CoCo lehs. Sorrys CoCo, don't dare hug yous lers. Over there I play audi withs kor for awhile to wait for Kailin come down meet us. After that around 12.30 evon`marmyy, elieen`jiejie, kelvin`korkor, ahkai`twinnie and me go take cab to tantockseng hospital to see ahxiong. He go motobike accident cause 5 ribcage bone to crack need operation. So scarys siahs. On the cab ahkai lie on my shoulder cause she sick D: Sorrys, yous sick I still ask yous out =!

After we visit ahxiong at the ICU we go take cab to Bugis. Wahs so shiok, got new wallet. Lalalalas. Somemore after that we sit at our usual hang out place over there blast song, sio hoonki and camwhore. Hahas, got some picture I take with kor and marmyy ders marmyy look so fierce luhhs. Like want kill me like that lors. Hahas. Ohoh, then we went to take neoprint at around 4 plus plus. Yeahs, I know i'm suppose to reach home at 3.30 but ohwells. Marmyy keep saying what she angry cause I always look best in the neoprint that we take together. I miss the neos that I took with them before I went in girls home cause that's my last picture that I took with my long hair =x

After that we send jiejie to Redhill to settle her daiji. Sians. After that marmyy and korkor send me home :D And the stupid taxi driver wanted to kao me. Eeyers! So gross cans, he so old alreadys still want to hong me. Hahas. So stupid.

Kelvin`korkor !

AhKai`twinnie !

Kelvin`korkor ;Evon`marmyy !

Evon`marmyy !

boyy ; hahas yous say one hors, when I get my probation time we go makan together :D
junkai ; hellos baobao, only talk to him before not say very close.
dino ; ohs hellos bee :D

2008-05-26T16:00:00.000+08:00

I am stress.
Yes, I am stress.
And I am going to crumple under all this stress.
Seriously, one week out here. Still not use to the life here at all. Time passed really fast this one week. But if it was inside there, that horrible hideous place, time would be like "tick-tock-tick-tick-tick". The clock like kena stuck, so slowwwwww. Went to bedok on saturday to pick Kailin up. Went up to Nelson's house there, but I didn't step in despite the please and what-so-ever threatening from DaCheeHo`kor, Jianwei, Kailin`twinnie and nice nice Baolian [:

Saw Joyce, she's pretty :D
Yeahs, really. No hard-feelings. Stayed around for 20 minutes? Then after that we went to pick Veron`boyfriend up. Yeahs. After that daddy drove us to the showflat of the flat that he just bought which cost 600k. Like oh-MM-geez . The house was like... One word, stunning. It's like damn spacious and damn pretty and all. Hahas, funniest thing was forgot Kailin or Veron say what next time come my house ton. Cause daddy gonna save a room for me, and buy me a new laptop to put it in my room at his house. So when I sleepover at his place, I don't have to lug my laptop from mummy's place to his. Yeahs.

Blahblahh, met up with Dianna :D Chicken McNugget. When meeting her that time, some bapok was like saying I staring at them. I just rolled my eyes and ignore. Then one of them suddenly ask me, "You did your extensions at city plaza is it?" I was like..

BP: You did your extensions at city plaza is it?
Me: Err no, around bukit panjang.
BP: Ohhhh. How much arhs?
Me: One extension $7.
BP: Aiyohs so expensive! *flinks hand* At city plaza only fifty cents, $1 or even $2 for the really thick ones. How much you do all together?
Me: $98, fourteen extensions.
BP: *laughs* next time go city plaza okays. cheaper. *smiles sweetly*
Me: Oh, thank yous. *return the smile*

At first we were like enemies, then in the end like friends. Damn fcuked lors. After that met korkor, marmyy and jiejie. Damn pekcek with marmyy and jiejie. I don't wants talk to thems lers. After that slack around, bought 2 packet chiong ders. After that met up with Dianna, Sihui and Kimberlyn ( ?) . Yeahs. Around 7.30 like that I say I want go liaos, then korkor and I left the other 3 at the staircase. Around 7.45 daddy come fetch me. Stupid siahs, Dianna call me around 8, she told me like right after my korkor and I left, 2 police came and screen thems. Wahs, I damn lucky. I got 2 packet chiong with me lors. Luckylucky lors.

Lazy post.
ILOVEHIM.

when your body sets your heart free, say you will be all over me .

2008-05-23T19:25:00.000+08:00

WELCOME BACK DIANNA` 爱爱 !
yayes ! congrats qqirl , managed to get probation . hahas . but yous so SWAY , get 2 years . hahas , i only 1 year . lalalalas . yous and sihui must last long long long okays ! i wills help yous 2 meet ders . but at where ? aljunied ? like that i get to see my korkor also :D kor , if i got go aljunied , yous must come find me slack okays ! just nows got shock whens mummy suddenly come in tell me a person call dianna call me . thens i superb happy siahs . cause she got probation . thens she tell me what happened in girls`home after i left . hahas . still remembered when diyana angeline and i left , saw kuan Q cried . so did dianna ( abit ;hahas loser ! ) , valerina and andriana . after i hugged andriana i cried lors . i never thought i wills actually cry when i leave there , but in the end i cried . i miss them alot . spent 5 weeks with angeline . and at least 3-4 weeks with dianna . and the others might be shorter but still . i miss you guys loads .

sians . just nows go out meet jeffron and ahbing . hahas , thank ahbing ! for buying me next chill . yayes . now i got hoonki dong for next few days . ands , i'm going to go smokeeee nows :D

dedications to miss shuen .

2008-05-22T19:44:00.000+08:00

seriously , this is SO totally ruins my day . wanted to post about my HAPPY day out with hazel , kailin and others . but then now must help kailin settle that pubor's thing . sians . okays , so here goes ...

Miss Shuen , seriously . Think twice before you say something , please . Do you know that you can be sued for slandering ? If Kailin is determined to charge you legally , you can be convicted by the law . All she have to say is that you have screwed her reputation and cause her to be in a state of temporary depression ? And the question is , why do you claim that she's a bitch ? And also , a fucked up one ? I'm defending her because she is my friend . She deserves a good explanation for what you are trying to address her . I doubt Shuen is your real name . Would you kindly not be a coward and just indicate your real name . Also , include your school and whatever necessary details ? Seriously , don't try to mess around with us . You rather you tell us yourself and we settle this thing nicely , or do you want it to end in tragedy ? The first option is much better , don't you think so . So yeahs . Truce . In case you don't know what that means , it meant peace . So , play nice . Or else , we will repay nasty with its' own colours . One more thing , check the dictionary would you ? You have serious spelling error here . It's U-G-L-Y not U-L-G-Y . Even a primary one student can identify that . Probably a kindergarten kid is able too .

too much nice talking . damn myself . why so guaiikia nows . cheebye lahs . knn , who is that puacheebye that's talking about kailin . i'm really damn pissed off . but i really want to settle it nicely . i wouldn't want to end myself up in such a sorry state , again . once is enough . once bitten , twice shy . yeahs .

haish , lazy post about today things ready .

2008-05-21T13:46:00.000+08:00

nows i withs qinen`bebe , jeanette ands junhao at jeffron's house . hahas , just nows morning i go withs qinen`bebe , junhao , jeffron`boyfriend ands my mummy to braddell to see my officer . but so stupid cans , she on MC . puacheebye , never call me =\\ make me go down for nothing . humph . then after that mummy go market thens we 4 go marsiling meet jeanette . thens they bring me go eat 猪什汤 at the kopitiam . the 猪什汤 soso lahs , but the chilli not hot at alls lors . ands thens nows they make me addicted to 猪什汤 , hahas . so i shall be on the hunt for the nicest 猪什汤 in singapore XD after we makans , we go block 217 slack awhiles thens we come jeffron's house lers . nows jeffrons`boyfriend sleeping like pig , junhao also . only qinen`bebe ands jeanette awake . stupid nors , i onlys sleep 2 hours ands they all sleep more than 1o yet i not sleepy but jeffron ands junhao sleeping . reallys is PIG , 猪 ! wahahahas [x

so sians , ohyahs . just nows whens just reach jeffron's house that time , his ahma thought i reallys his gf cause jeffron called me, "baobeii" . hahas . so stupid . so malu cans . thens i make jeffron explain i not his gf , thens he ahma say no need paiseh one . LOLS . sibei cute lors his ahma . hahas . but mummy onlys let me come here until 2.30 ): need to go soon . ands those 2 pigs still no want to wake ups . sians . have to walk home . lucky he stay 207 not 600 + , if not i have to walk verys far .

last night i smoke alot sehs . at first i left 2 sticks onlys . thens because something happen thens make me very angrys and depress luhs . so i call jeffron help me buy one packet . i smoke until left 4 sticks onlys nors last night . sians . but nows nots at home , i cannots smoke (left hoonki at home) . rahhhhs . bui tahan . still very angrys , humphs . thens junhao no let me smoke . haish . don't control me luhs . he hide all the hoonki nors .

okays nahs . i don't want post lers . sibei dulan nows . humphs .

and that's just it

2008-05-20T21:59:00.000+08:00

i'm like a stranger now, to every single thing. to the people i loved (still lovin'), my friends, the gadgets around and so other things. so much have changed while i was away in GH. especially those i love and friends lahs. is like all their relationship all came to an end. gosh, so retard nors. quotes' from jeffron, "why you not around everything become fucked up?" hahas, cause i'm the best yo ;D lalalalalas. but whatever. not like that something to be happy. but one thing never change, my love for kailin and her love for me ♥ thanks qqirl for the things you have done. hahas that idea of blogging for me was so sweet lahs, but sadly i came out too early then you cannot carry out that plan. credits lyn and hazel too for wanting to do it too. maybe i should have come out later, like request for extension of remand or something *smirks* shall dedicate this post to some people (:

ahkai ♥ . thanks for all you have done for me, especially that cute idea of blogging. you are still my one and only bbaby`boy(: saranghaeyo!
lyn ♥ . my cheena prostitute and wifey arhs. aiyohs, so long never see you lers. i know you miss me, cause you message me that okays. hahas. thankyous! and i AM seeing you this thursday. aren't you happy? and we can feast on sushi together XD and thanks for the blog idea too, yeahs ? i love you!
hazel ♥ . aww man(: thanks for missing me my fellow pandion XD and that stupid comment from you. aww. i miss those times too. must crap on phone some day again okays! 我爱 black dog!
bryan ♥ . thanks dude for caring for me yeah. erms you will always be my zhuzhuu. yeah.
yenhua ♥ . i will bring you your sweets okays (: that's a promise. i love my funky spastic buddy!
weicai`kor ♥ . i know you miss me although i always fake say you never. sorry okays. but you know i miss you too.
chloe ♥ . that was damn cute of you to actually phone up GH to ask if you can visit me. gosh, i can't love you more girl for what you have done for me. thankyous. i promise to atten ROD this thursday. iloveSPASTICchloe too!
platoonmates ♥ . goodluck for ROD. i'm sorry for not being able to get promoted with you guys, but you know i will always be there for you guys(: seventeen fever forever :D
3grace ♥ . thanks everyone, especially qingyi. you even bothered to phone me up to ask how i was. thankyou guys. if i can go back to school, i'm sure there's room for improvement for my attitude towards you guys. i'm sorry that i was mean to you guys when you guys were super friendly and nice to me. thanks yups.
jiahao ♥ . yalahs, i will be guaii from now on. thanks for all the reminders yups. remember your promise okays! if i go to school one whole month must treat me movies hors XD

there's many many more .. but lazy type. hehs.

2008-05-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

我爱 hims .
reallys miss hims alot nows . but me ands hims sure cannot ders . i give up . yups . GIVE UP . don't blame me , cause yous were the one that was the hongster while i was inside . ands nows i'm out , yous give alot of rubbish to me also . confuse yous know . she keep helping yous , tell me yous reallys cared for me while i was inside , i very happy that yous tried . but this also makes it harder for me to give yous up . i will try my best to forget yous . since it's so difficult for us to be together . all those reasons . maybe it's just me , but i willing to be the one to give up first . i'm still healing from this one , it's going to be hard cause i still love yous loads . boy , i miss yous . i reallys do .

in 12 hours ands 10 minutes i get to see my baby`boy kailin . hahas . i miss yous man girl . i know i have said that alot of times but hahas . cause i reallys miss yous . i miss veron too . girl last long long with nelson kays . yous know i'm here too . kengyee yous too , honeyy don't sad lers . i knows is that bastard's fault . i also angrys with hims , that's why wants give up lers . but yous don't do silly things okays . i want to go back school . but wills lowlow give me one more chance or nots . humph . sians nahs . todays i try to smoke again also . wahs , sibei seh lors my first stick . oh-my-geez , i like don't like the taste lahs . machiam want to puke . but second ands third sticks better lers . but still abit cannot take it . somemore is only SINGAPORE the marlboro menthol . haish . singapore ders , not chiong ders lehs . eeyers . how i face others lors . AND I'M GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT . to go back to my 41kg . VIOLET JIAYOUS :D

Roundabout In Girls`home .

2008-05-18T01:35:00.000+08:00

i reallys miss yous guys . 5 weeks away, everythings is different . almost everythings have changed . but i so do miss yous people . especially KHOOKAILIN and HIM . but i'm damn disappointed with him nors . heard stories about what he had done . was it just tales that yous told me? it's getting hard for me to hang on . forget about those . i will remember those times in girls home with my fellow gans too . yous guys accompany and stick with through those tough times . i love yous all .

talking on phone with my bbaby`boy kai nows . like we got endless things to say . gosh, yous don't knows how much i miss yous mans . don't cry, cause yous know yous got me by your side now (: we are going to be how we used to be . i know we will . it's a promise boyy . i so cannot wait for mondayy . going to monday, going to meet bbaby`boy . can see her again . then on thursday i wills try go back school for visit . then holidays planning to meet up with my kengyee`honeyy also . wahs, so miss yous guys loads . but when cans see him ... i like want see hims but also don't wants . cause very confuse lahs . humph . nows i go pei my bbaby`boy lers . thens laters sneak downstairs buy hoonki (:

lalalalas . new blog cause want start afresh .

12-04-08 to 16-05-08 . I'll never forget those times .